WITHDRAWALS ARE GETTING HARDER TO TAKE EXHAUSTED BEEN UP HAS TO BE 45 HOURS OR MORE

[halstead124]

im having harder and harder time trying to keep up and busy and not think about it then im so lost in my days having trouble with time start thinking when was my last norc it starts to consume me and it wasnt yesterday like i thought it was it was sunday and this whole time i thought it was last night ive been up so long with nothing in me since sunday so really start getting a little worked up then rember xanx take 1 calm down there also gone i got them out of the house so i wouldnt take all those start thinking and stressing about another night with no sleep im trying to do eveything people gave me advice for like trying to keep busy i did went to store drove around awhile trying to keep all that out of my head doing few things around house i still think about it jump in shower calm down a little but still a little on edge any advice or anything on to give me to sleep a little

[halstead124]

ah dude i read your post and i know that had to be brutal i thought i quit once but that guy wasnt me i mean i was in such a depression i  lost intrest in everything i ever had i had nice cars like chevelles ,camaro,a couple harleys now gone i could not have cared less i started thinking what if i do pull this off im gonna hate me and i dont want to make my familys life hell then thats how my kids will remember me ya know jagofff or junkie either way i cant win so i guess im just trippin ,thanks

[halstead124]

i know ive tried this so many times and actually for weeks once i quit i thought i did it but as the days passed i felt a 100 times worse and fell back and thats what im worried about never feeling the way i used to and thats what freaks me out im never gonna be me again and people on here have said that took some work

[IBKleen]

Try and relax hun. It is going to be hard for the next few days---physically. Okay? But you already decided that you ARE going to do this so hang in there. I promise, it will be over soon.

[halstead124]

thanks im just so exhausted ive consumed myself with being done with this and have gotten rid of everything so theres no temptation but also no security and this is how i wanted to do it because everything else id probably give up i just got to be done with this you know,thanks advice

[halstead124]

i was doing ok  a few hours or so ago and im so tired im trying to keep my mind clear and listen to what others have given there advice and i was ok  it wasnt that bad then i just start thinking about how ive gone a whole day without pill and how i can do this to me thinking of the last time and im already shakey then found out it wasnt when i thought it was two days ago and i start doubting i can do this took my xanx out of the house so nervous that i sit another night and its a nightmare to sit night after night watching the wall or just thoughts racing thru your head but i dont want to stop trying i just dont know how to do it without pumpin myself up with something i think im just so tired its making everything harder