This post has many truths.. My moments of true clarity like you took about a month.. I never wd for mental health before it was either this surgery is over or that pain has healed and don't want to push the Dr. that was before I shattered my foot.. I thought I was under control as I played and walked away as I said before wd was not the enemy.. my brain was.. Well once I tripped my brain on percs and started seeing a shrink.. it woke me up.. That was the hardest the mental aspect.. a few times I thought oh no this ain't worth it.. but IT IS.... You know those thick plastic sheets that cover door ways I felt like I was viewing life and feeling through one of those.. Once tore down.. It was amazing everything was so bright and clear.. It was all right there all I had to do was step through.. Yeah I did !! I'm now a lil over 5mo. clean and I do not regret one sec of what I went through if this is the payoff I would do it again in a hot minute just to wake up to who I em today..... Thanks gizzy .. lesa
It's 2 months for me tomorrow and i feel good but i still haven't felt that way. it is so hard everyday i really miss the high and i think about it everyday. i have been good and i will still be good i just dont know i want to feel like that so bad!
Congrats on your almost 2 months of sobriety, Ronnie! I'm sure you'll feel that way soon, since everyone's different. I wish you all the best. :)
Congrts on 2mo. Ronnie... That is an accomplishment.. delphia is correct we are all different.. I think the difference for me was I do not miss the high.. I was so desperately unhappy in active addiction.. I was so low any lower they would have buried me.. I had to work for my recovery.. everyday I forced myself out with the dogs.. I had to force myself to do everything.. but once I got involved in my life.. it gets easier.. hang in there and find something besides drugs that brings passion... I also wish you the best :))
I felt it not yesterday, but the day before I woke up and all these feelings overwelmed me. I am only five days clean from hydros, its seems though i finally woke up.. Every issue that made me use, i had to face them and i was ready. i was crying non stop. I called both of my sisters and told them everything that i had done on the past and why i ignored them so much. and i explained to them if i get weak again, to slap me or talk me out of it. when my husband got home i said some things to him i was scared to say for years. and i told him if he did not live a clean life we are done.!!! i realized all the money i blew every damn pay day. All i can say is Yes i do believe it was a rebirth :-)
the way i think is totally different.
kalie
It has been a week today for me,,, YES,,, I do feel like i'm experiencing the world like a child again, there are so many things that i didn't take enjoyment in that now i do,, if you say it gets better than this,, i can't wait.... thank you for the inspiration..
Lisa