Well, I'm back...again.

[sissy1432]

My last dose of hydro was last Tuesday the 2nd. It was a 7.5 a friend gave me. Before that I was taking two 10's at a time probably 3-4 times a day. I feel better than the past couple of days physically (except for my back), but mentally I want them. And I know that I can get them filled end of next week. I don't know what to do anymore. Before I started taking these, I wasn't as motivated as I became on them. That was the best part. I just feel like I can take on all that has been put upon me. Which has been alot, mentally.

I just feel like I know I will get them filled. And It will be about the time I've gotten over the w/d's. I just feel like a very weak person who means well. I hope this makes sence.

[sissy1432]

Well, I am feeling okay today. Had a bit of depression this morning. That comes and goes. Most of it is just things and choices in the past bothering me. I actually have a bit of a burst of energy right now. And all I have had was a cup o' coffee and a mountain dew:). I hope I can keep this up!!

[sissy1432]

Thank you so much for all of your comments. I just wish I could feel "that way" naturally, but don't we all. I'll be back tomorrow:)

[Soon2BMrsTurner]

It will take 5 to 7 days for the hard Wd to be over physically. But mental takes forever, Have you thought about aftercare? meetings, or Therapy? Someone to talk to and a sponsor incase of triggers? All that has to be thought about also . But the nasty physical will last about a week

[CleanUpTime]

I'm probably not the best role model, since I just got off Vic's 2 days ago, but it basically comes down to "are you ready to start over again if you take the meds?".

I've been on and off Vic's for about a year; this time, I hope I am strong enough to break free.

I keep thinking to days of when I was truly happy without the Vic's and has all the energy in the world. I keep telling myself I can get back to that, it'll just take some time and fighting with my brain.

Good luck to you. Lucky you though, you seem past the WD's. I'm in the middle of'em.

[sissy1432]

How much better do "any of you" think I will feel by the end of next week? I took the last of my valium yesterday so, It's just c/t now.

[Soon2BMrsTurner]

Please dont get them filled , Its going through hell for nothing if you do. You can do this but getting them filled after all that work to get through Wd's Seems to me that it would be a huge letdown to yourself. Keep looking forward, dont look back and a good idea would be to call your doctor and pharmacy and tell them you want them trashed and dont want anymore if you are really serious about being clean from now on and not till the refill gets here =)

[HelpinUtah]

You can do it hun!!!!  Good luck!!!  Life will be so much better without the Lortab.  I stopped right around the same time as you and it's very difficult, but we are strong and can do it!!!

[road2recovery]

Of course that makes sense...Look at what you have been through, and think do you want to do it again?  It also made me be able to do more then usual, but even after getting up to 15 or more a day, it still wasn't enough...All that did was keep the w/d's away..PLease try not to get them filled...It does get better, i promise...
You can beat this!!
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