i quit methadone w ur help

[rowdyRed]

Now let me say thank u first. My phones been "sick" & i couldnt post. But u guys are so good u kept me upbeat when i couldnt do it myself. Just by doing what yall do. I wont lie, it got real hairy there for awhile. I was so worried and obsessing over what was to come, i dont even know for sure when my last dose was! I have no after-care planned as of yet....so heres ur chance my angels :  )becomingrowdyagain
Rowdyred

[digger1976]

He probably thinks he is being supportive, in his own mixed up way! An addict will always find an excuse to use or to continue using, it's the nature of the beast. The only things he can truly help with is to keep all meds hid from you and back you! The rest you will have to seek for yourself, AA/NA, counselling whichever suits you best. Don't let his behaviour ruin a good plan, you've come this far, now to see it through.

[brandiroars386]

So glad your feeling better! Please stay focused and do what's best for YOU.

[Kbusymom]

Congratulations; glad to hear you're feeling better.  WD is no joke.   Aftercare is def important; glad you're going to a meeting.  I hope your husband becomes more supportive; I can't imagine getting clean in that environment.  You are strong!  Don't let him bring you down.

[rowdyRed]

He thinks he's being supportive but it seems no. His injury is either his crutch or just another excuse. He used way before the accident.

[digger1976]

No worrys, lol. I was hooked on Heroin and Valium for 14 years, not nice, lost everything more than once and twice, lol. I went on Methadone, hated it, swapped to Subutex. I jumped 5 1/2 month back from 4 mgs, never looked back, best thing I ever did, ;) Everything is so doable if you want it enough. You've done amazing doing it on your own, especially with your hubby still using, that must be hard for you!

[rowdyRed]

Wow. Just figured this thing out. Sorry to ramble. What was your DOC?

[digger1976]

Not remembering how long you've been clean is a good thing, well to me it is! It shows your not stressing it to much, good for you! Ignore your hubby, (the best you can) and get yourself to NA, it will help having some outside support! Just wanted to say well done, you've done amazing my friend. Be very proud of what you've achieved, ;)

[rowdyRed]

I am trying to go to na tonite or Fri. My husband says not to. I really dont know anybody in this town so it can be seen as good or bad. Its just that he says I can get enough help from my mom(who lives 3,000 mi. away)& from him(who uses pain meds himself)! I wont go back ive come too far- even if I cant remember how long Ive been clean!

[VICourageous]

It sounds like you are doing OK Physically..Just be in tune with your self that you will have some mental waves come in & out. Did you set your self up with some Aftercare?? It is really important that we do not walk this Journey alone. This is a very powerful disease but we can put it to bed..But we must do a whole new Life change to keep it in bed..Stress or Drama and being around users can cause Triggers. Lot of ups & downs in Life that we used to not deal with clear headed. Just be Safe and work on this life long recovery..If not it can bite you in the ash at any given moment. Our brain likes to trick us to use for many reasons. You are doing good..Just would not want you to fall down and hurt your self..Keep it up and just keep stepping forward never to look back again.
Bless
PS..Music and Exercise and the Sun helps fire up those Happy Chems in the Brain.

[rowdyRed]

I feel great...then I dont. Headaches, not as much energy as I would.like. All in all, pretty "normal". Dont have much experience with that in quite the while! Im loving music Sooo much these days. Does anybody remember Primus?

[rowdyRed]

I really did a fast taper c/t oxy(i call em Roxys)& dr. gave only enough methadone(dones) for a 2wk.taper. I just did it as I could. But for His grace. Thats all I can say. Really dont know how it happened. It was just over(the bad w/d's).

[rowdyRed]

Ill probably say it a lot but yall are amazing! Its been like since the 5th maybe, of Nov. I was on 40mg.methadone & 4 15mg.oxycodone. Definately not an easy feat...but already worth it

[VICourageous]

Hi Red. I remember when you came on once..How many days do you have in??..How are you feeling right now??..This comes from a X-Doner that c/t it with 2 other meds. I am just curious how you feel right now..
Bless

[ROSYouralright]

What an AMAZING thing to read! Sure put a smile in my face!!!!!! Glad your phone is feeling better! Lmbo! Approximately when was your last dose? How much & how long were u using???? Im excited for you!