Finished tapered oxy - Day 1

[donewitis]

Okay..well that tapering business wasn't easy, but definitely the softer, gentler way for me. Still tapering the xanax, and goin' to Dr. tomorrow.. The past two days i did 3.5mg oxy..so that should do it. Can't get any lower than that, right?
For those who have been praying for me,( attabeach, tab53) and others..please don't stop. I still need all the help I can get. So now it's time to get them out of the house. What I am going to do is put them in with used kitty litter and then dampen it down. I hear FREEDOM calling.

[gnarly_1]

HI just wanted to take a quick check up on how your doing....how you feel...??/ tapering usually helps soften the blow just be ready for some restless legs and no sleep for a few days this is normal for this even with tapering post often for support we all want to see you make it to the other side and get well your off to a good start and as always ....''you just got to be ok without bining ok for a iwle'' this to shall pass good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[atthebeach]

glad to see you are feeling ok. please try to get out for a walk ,isolating yourself isnt good. the walk and the light and sunshine will do you some good.

[donewitis]

Day 4 - Again slept pretty well. Very lethargic, pain - 6 out of 10. Taking Ibuprophen...

[donewitis]

Day 3 - Surprisingly I slept pretty well. I was extremely tired. My cat (doesnt normally do this) lay down beside me as soon as I turned off the light. He was at my back purring..I don't know how long he stayed there..but that purring against my back felt incredibly comforting. Still and all I am having pain, especially in my hands..they feel like they want to bend in odd ways and there is a tremor, and anxiety level is up there. Back pain as well. It's all tolerable. I'm not complaining just documenting. I have no desire to see people....feeling agoraphobic again. (or however its spelled)
Just hiding out.

[donewitis]

You are such a blessing to this site gnarly... thanks

[gnarly_1]

HI WELL you did all the damage controle you can tapering your probably going to be in for a mild cace of the flu for a few days that and no sleep dont think thers a way to beat that
get comfrotable with the saying ....''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' this to shall pass pick up a case of gatoraid and force the fluids as for the aches and pains a hot soak works about best dont under estimate this therapy remember this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental you cant beat the mental tapering so be ready to fight it .....I truly believe this is a battle one or lost in ones own mind so attitude is everything ....go into this thing with a win win attitude and you will come out fine you have my praryers keep posting for support good luck and God bless......Gnarly  

[killmypain]

You're welcome and congrads! You made it through today! Sleep might not come so easily for a while but it will, eventually. I took a couple benadryl and a couple melatonin before going to bed that first week or so and it seemed to help some. Now I'm 38 days clean and sleep about 6 hours a night... like a baby!

Tomorrow is another day. Get up and decide to stay clean! Get outside and feel the sunshine and know that it's gonna get better soon! Good Luck!

[donewitis]

I'll be back tomorrow, I'm going to try to sleep.

[donewitis]

Day 2 - Not feeling that energy I had yesterday...exhaustion and foggy today, though I was out walking early this am. So that's good. I'm sorry if I wasn't clear in my last post, regarding "I am not an addict." I was just trying to convey what I knew was untrue..and to admit that I was having these crazy thoughts..even knowing they were crazy, ya know?  But, it wasn't until right now that I flushed them down the toilet. I heard it's not good for our water systems and intended the cat litter way..but heck ..I heard killmypain's post LOUD & CLEAR.(thank you) I hadn't thought about taking them but I can't have them around  in case an irrestible urge comes over me. I have no 'sources' It's got to be all about recovery now and God's Will, not mine. Try to rebuild my life..one step at a time. Also get off the xanax...still tapering low dose.
When I felt the earth move today..I thought I might be dealing w/some sort of w/d. :)
Thank you Debbie and ImDONENoMore.

[ImDONENoMore]

I agree with everyone - not a good idea to have them around.  Hopefully by now you're gotten rid of them?  Don't test yourself like that - it's a test addicts can easily fail.

You are DONE remember?  :)

[atthebeach]

get rid of those pills.  there are crutches. you dont need them. they will play mind games with you. the devil is a liar.
prayer is being answered. that LORD is with you. you and HE make a majority.
sending hugs and prayers
debbie

[killmypain]

You're an addict.... we all are on here. We know that the pills have caused changes in our lives and the lives of our loved ones... whether we admit it or not. I understand that you are rationalizing your problem away but understand this.... if you continue to use, you won't get better. It will get worse and worse. It might take years but if you put years in, it will take years to recover. Get rid of the pills! I was 3 weeks in and wanted a pill so bad.... If I hadn't gotten rid of them, I would've used again. Stay strong! Good luck!

[shiningstar500]

Good luck to you and stay strong!! You can do it!!

[donewitis]

I have figured out I am not an addict. How could I be since it was so easy getting off the oxy..not much physical w/d's..hmmm. Sure last week was difficult. Felt pretty close to losing my mind..but did I have diarreah, no leg cramps, no, chills, no...

I just needed to share this. I haven't thrown the oxy into the cat  litter..what am I waiting for? I'm just sharing how the mind plays tricks, I can justify just about anything...
okay...I'm gonna do it.

[donewitis]

Thank you both. I didn't mean to leave anyone out. You guys are great!

[hungouttodry]

Keep on going soon u will look back and say wow already 50 days like it was nothing. Keep on the path and you will beat this mess so God Bless and have a good evening Ill keep praying for you me and every body else

[hiskidd]

Good for you! Valerian Root helped me a lot for anxiety. Lots of liquids. Banannas. Walk!

It def is a waiting game. Funny movies. Netflix :)

I'm praying for you too!

[donewitis]

I am  amazed. I expected alot of bathroom runs, all the crappy stuff, that comes with w/d but in a milder sense. In actuality, other than feeling wide awake (a little jittery) and feel the need to take deep breaths, I can eat, I just returned from the grocery store and the library, just walking around town. It's a beautiful day..especially for August. Pretty incredible for the first day off oxy.
Thank you Lord

[donewitis]

Amen. Congratulations on your clean time. Best of Luck to you too.

[Tattoo67]

Keep strong I am 2.5 days without Vicodin.  Still feel bad but fightning to get to the 72 hour mark.  Just think of it as the fight of you life for your life.  Best of luck

Tattoo