Why

[Imdone12]

I don't know why im so scared to quit these stupid pills. I don't even like the feeling that they give me anymore. I was supposed to quit yesterday but I didn't I kept telling myself that one more day would be fine. I'm scared to go thought the withdrawals again I think. I had almost 30 days clean and then relapsed about 3 weeks ago. I took a few earlier and was on my way to go get more and turned around a decided I didnt need to keep doing this anymore. I'm done and terrified what these next few days will bring and I'm hoping that it won't be as bad as the last time I did it.

[Imdone12]

Thank you for you kind and encouraging words. You have always made me feel better bama. There is just so much going on right now. I'm only 25 I have 3 children ages 6 and twins that are 3 a  boyfriend that I love to death bit he has never provided for us which is why we lost our house and the kids and I had to move back home to my moms. Disappointed is not even a strong enough word for her I feel as though she looks at me and sees a failure and I don't want her to look at me like that. My grandma has always been Wonderfull to me and let's me use her credit cards which my
Mom doenst know about and now I have her 10000 in debt because I would rather spent my cash on pills. How do I tell them this without destroying my family. I told my grandma about the cards and she doesn't care she says I know you were desperate and I'll do everything I can to help you. She has always been this way with me. I guess im ranting a little and I'm sorry just needed to vent I feel like I'm having a mid life crisis and I'm only 25 and I feel like my life is never going to get any better than this! Please tell me it will

[bama88]

the pills make you feel this way. i bet if your mom knew you were quiting shed be happy. and to see you quit permanent shed he very happy. i know how you feel. i felt that same way. i felt like the biggest looser in the universe. so you can't have my title. i worked hard for that one lol. hey im going thru a surgery and trying not to take any pills. they aren't working so why keep trying right? so if i can sit here in pain levels that stream tears down my face you got this!! i mean it. ill support you. I've been there. but feeling sorry for ourselves doesn't do anything about it. it just make us depressed. and right now you've got to breathe thru this detox. ok? your better than what you think you are
i bet your mom wouldn't trade you for a million dollars. and baby your worth more...keep posting. support...and baby hug...bama

[Imdone12]

In so emotional I feel like I am a failure in ever aspect of my life and I hate it. I don't know what I can do to make things better at this point. My family is disappointed in me and they have no idea what is going on. I wish I could tell them but I fear what they would think of me or say about me and that my mom may throw me out!

[Imdone12]

Thank you

[downandout1982]

There are links on the bottom of your page for the Thomas recipe and amino acid protocal. I had no Idea of these thing when I started detox I just found this site but I see many people who say they help.

[LostNoMore]

I don't know about the W/D's from a 3 week relapse. maybe someone will come along with some experience. I would say that your 30 days clean 3 weeks ago can't hurt, and will more than likely lessen your detox now.
It certainly will be less severe than the one you did a couple of months ago, and you made it through! Good luck and stay close to the forum.

[Imdone12]

Right now in at about 20 hours with no pills and other then feeling a little anxious I feel ok. Someone please tell of if this is going to get worse. It was a 3 week relapse and I just want to have an idea of what's to come

[kyle505]

Your fear is normal. I was like you - I'd done detox and didn't want to go through it again. I was afraid of it. So I decided to taper - but then I was afraid of not getting the high I needed. One day I found that I was afraid to look in the mirror. The shame had become so bad. That was the moment 43 days ago I started detox and the fear stopped. It really is that easy. And you'll be through the worst in a few days.

[thanksrencher]

What supplies?   I need to know so I can get them please

[LostNoMore]

I can relate to the fear you have. I was terrified of detox. I would work myself up into a panic attack just thinking about it. I thought I was "preparing" myself, but what I was really doing was making it worse. The fear turned out to be much worse than the detox. Yes, the W/D's are no picnic, and you will feel
like poo for a few days. Get the thomas recipe and the Amino Acid Protocol
stuff. Get as much of it as you can find. Get some gatorade and force fluids as often as you can stand. get some bananas, and eat as much good food as you can. Get some mild exercise if possible, walking or swimming or treadmill. Hot soaks with epsom salts are amazing, especially at night. I'm at 30 days today and last night, at 2am, I still wasn't asleep (insomnia has been my most persistent symptom) so i got up and took a nice, long, hot bath. Took a book in there and sat until the water cooled. After that, I slept for six STRAIGHT hours, a record for me! You've done this before so you know it's doable. Also, think about some knd of aftercare. It's made the difference for me. Good luck.

[tomskat]

Well,you've made the right decision. So you will be going cold turkey then? Are you prepeared with some supplies to help you get through this?

[Imdone12]

Thank you. I took my last pill at 4pm and that's the last one I ever plan on taking. I just want to be done with these and to start feeling normal again without wondering when the next time I'm going to get high is going to be

[tomskat]

Hi there and welcome! Congratulations on your decision to quit. Fear of quitting stems from a lot of different things. For many,it's our coping mechanism;it's how we deal with things. Without them,how will we deal with life? The answer is,you just do. Quitting is a process...we are willing to put 100% of our energy into using/abusing drugs,but aren't willing to give that 100% to quitting. You can do this. Yes,it will be hard. But it is possible to do. Just start 1 day at a time,1 hour by hour. You have so much to live for,and living life clean is amazing!! i too was scared to quit,afraid of what my life would be like without drugs. But it's incredible what you miss out on when you're high. So choose a date to quit,like tomorrow maybe? And start your journey. Stay on this site as there is a ton of support here as well as information from others. I'm sure the others will be joining this conversation soon. Whenever you are craving,post.Keep us posted on your process,and good luck to you! Stay strong,you can do this!!