3days clean off 150mg plus of oxey when will this pain and bad feelings go away

[Mammajnotok]

I need sleep I'm a 30 year old mother of three I have quit for about a week tops three times in the last two year but I keep going back I was using with the father of my children so I removed myself from our apartment and relocated 5 days ago for the first two days i popped perks like candy I wanna say 30 in a two day span but then they ran out uuuggghhh and I just want to die I have a 7,6 and 2.5 year old that I have absolutely no help with I want to kick this habit and find the strong willful women who I know is in there but I'm just have no energy I can't sleep for more then 40 mins at a time I shake uncontrollably I have restless legs constant chills and sweats help what can undo to make this alittle easier to deal with so I don't turn back to the devil

[jifmoc]

Hi and welcome. Excellent job removing yourself from a dangerous situation when you need to get clean. You are right where you should be: detox is hell. But you know that. You need to STAY clean not get clean. So, first, you need to cut all your contacts. Block your dealer's #. Change your ph # if you need to. Are you willing to do whatever it takes to stay clean?

Get into meeting asap. As soon as you can. That will be the difference between being a drowning mom and a mom who can not only be there for her kids but wants to be there. But, as you know, you have to do this for you or it won't work. Find an NA or AA meetings and just go. No excuses.

My good friend on here always says "you will just have to be okay with not being ok for a while." This is your addiction coming to collect payment. There is no free ride.

Maybe try Hylands restless leg for the leg jolts. Eat bananas, too. Sleep is the last thing to come back so you'll just have to be patient. That's the name of the game w/ getting clean: patience. It's something we addicts aren't very good at, but we can work on it.

Stay close to this site and keep checking back. If you stay close, you'll get so much awesome support.

[Mammajnotok]

Thank you slept for an hit and looked up a meet for Friday at 8pm one minute I feel so weak and want to give in but the little voice in my head keeps saying it's just going to have to happen agian and from the beginning ugggghhh I don't even understand why this stuff even exists