almost out of the woods, withdrawal from oxycontin

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Hi, I haven't posted for a while but it will be the 2 weeks mark on Friday, the last few days I was too exhausted to post and still on a roller coaster ride emotionally. The last 2 days have been better but I'm taking things sometimes 1 minute at a time. I've been cooped in the house for all this time. I don't want to talk to my nosy neighbors so I go rock in my chair on my back deck. I now sleep till dawn, I go to bed at around 11 pm so it's a fair amount of sleep though I'd love to have much more because my body feels really battered. I've done this cold turkey, I take klonopin and clonidine. It's been a living hell and at the height of the withdrawals I thought just shoot me. I actually tried to cut my wrist but didn't get too far I was barely able to stand and my husband found me in the bathroom with a dull knife lol, I'll never complain about dull knives again. I did cut myself but no serious damage. I do hope that things keep looking up. I still have no energy which is normal I"m told but my mind is clearing which is not a good combination. The back pain that started me on this lovely journey is back and worst then it was which is a little scary. I'm still taking tylenol 3 every 4 hours during the day my last dose I take at 6 p.m., those never relaxed me they make me antsy and I have a hard time sleeping on them so at night I take ibuprofen. This doesn't do a lot for the pain which drains me but I hate the oxycontins so much I'm willing to live with the pain. If I can do it, trust me you can do it. Now I'm making my plan on staying clean. First I'll join NA, then I'll have to find a way to live with the pain but reduce it as much as possible without using really strong pain meds. There's a lot of things I can't do anymore, but there's a lot of things I can still do. I love nature and love photography so I'm going to create a little Eden for myself. I'm not able to garden like I used to so my husband is helping me plan this, I'll use a lot of big flower pots and have very small flower beds with plants that attract hummingbirds. I desperately want my life back, it's not perfect but I'm in control. I'll keep updating I promise and I pray that I'll stay clean..........

shannonhoon · Answer

Thanks for the response and JK I'm LMAO, I can just see myself marching on down there on shaky legs and looking like death telling them to mind their own business. WHOA that would have the damn town talking!!!!!

I really do appreciate your input and I now will explore the forum a lot.

Thanks again

gizzy32 · Answer

Glad to hear your gonna check out some meetings, they can really help. 2 weeks clean is great and it will get better, we sound like a broken record sometimes, but it's true, it takes time to heal and that fog to go away. You will be back to photography soon and see things much different. Look in the health pages for the thomas recipe or the amino acid protocal, they may really help. There is also a pain management forum here that could give you some advice too. Congrats on that clean time and keep us updated. 

P.S. Go talk to your nosy neighbours and tell them to mind their own fing business, lol. JK

beatingthis · Answer

Good for you! No more knife things OK? Depression is so normal when in w/d.
Sounds like you have pretty much under control.

You will find a way to live the pain. I did. Chronic almost daily migraines. I take over the counter and some Zomig now nothing else. Some days bad some good. Someone told me once at least you know you have a head.

Your doing GREAT. I also am going to do go big pots of flowers. Last year I had 14.
Not going to have that many this year.

Terry