am i addicted to legal and none legal drugs

[lonely87501]

I've took cocaine for 6 years and had a recent  mild heart attack from base.when I left hospital I couldnt sleep restless and crying at home I've been prescrib propanolol 40 mg 3 times a day

[digger1976]

The force is strong in you Evolver, you beat me again, lol. Great post by the way.

My friend is right about building up support, having someone to lean on throughout this will make a big difference in your mood.

Keep posting and telling us how you feel, keep up the fight and never back down my friend, you will meet your new clean self soon...

[EvolverU]

There he is right in between this post & my other one. He must have been posting @ the same time! (See, the Universe is rolling in your favor, here!) Btw, I realized after I posted that it sounded like I was British. I'm not. I'm a Yank -- just lived there for a while.

[digger1976]

Hello fellow brit, never caught this thread or you earlier than this sorry for that. I had a long running problem with all white powders a long time ago, I do understand what your going through. Everything your feeling is natural as it takes time for your mind and body to recover, I know this doesn't help you, but you have to believe it will get better. Drinking is a hard one, I drank through detox, I thought it helped but it just made me more emotional and when you start to feel it ware of and you start to feel ill due to hangover ontop of detox, it hurts even more. Then what do you do, you start to drink again. This is not the answer my friend. You could end up turning one addiction into another. Just be careful.

If you feel like things are getting out of control, take a long soak in a hot bath, that always helped me. Make sure your drinking plenty of water, and eating healthy foods. All this will help your body recover faster. Go out for walks in the fresh air, exercise in your flat anythings better than sitting it out. Watch funny re-runs on Youtube, listen to music. Music was always a good one for me. Plant some headphone's on a turn up your favourite music load. Helps with the racing thoughts. But above all don't give in my friend. You will come out the other side, It will start to get better day by day. I know it doesn't feel like it now but it truly will. Wishing you all the luck in the world with everything your trying to achieve.

[EvolverU]

Oh...It's so good to see you!! (Big Smile To You.) Well, You've got a friend in me & I'm sure you'll make more here. I too, was rather isolated because I had to give up my old drug friends in order not to relapse (& because, frankly, for the most part they depressed me. [I don't need their help in that area! Ha!]

So..let's see. You've been drinking & doing Meth since you stopped the coke? I see your from Gloucester. Welcome, mate! (I used to live in Edinburgh,.) There are a few folks from the UK. I'm going to have a mate of mine come in & talk with you, OK? (If I can grab him!)

The thing is that the drugs that you're taking are going to have the same affect that the coke had on you emotionally. How are you doing the meth? You say that you can't cope. Can you tell us a little bit about your life situation & drug history. Can you get some counseling on the National Health? That would give you an anchor & get you out of the flat. You could also go to AA/NA meetings and make friends there who would support you. Try to stay on line here & start reading people's threads, journals, statuses, etc. It might be an eye-opener. Many people here felt the way you do & kicked in very difficult circumstances. So, you're definitely NOT alone. You've got to tell yourself that you CAN do this. YOU'RE WORTH IT, my friend. I'd love to hear your thoughts. We're here & we're pulling for you!

[lonely87501]

I don't have 1 friend I don't have a understanding family

[lonely87501]

Its been 14 days since cocaine and 5 since speed I've turned to alcohol it seems to help me relax . I just can't cope . I'm so lonely I cry every night and weekend

[lonely87501]

I think I'm suffering from anxiety I'm really low and tired then I'm hyperactive thoughts running fast through mind uncontrollable then I crash and I'm down again .I'm dreading this weekend on my own isolated in my flat .alcohol seems to find the balance between low and high .its takes away realism . I really can't cope any more someone please tell me what am I to do . Help

[nursegirl6572]

Yes, you need to reach out to people face to face in your life.  This kind of deep despair happen coming off coke.

Make no mistake about it...if you think you will try to harm yourself, you need to seek help right away okay?  Call 911 if you have to.

You won't always feel like this, it takes time.  What are you doing to help yourself?  Are you getting out, seeing people?  You need to get reengaged in life!

[EvolverU]

You're NOT alone! The emotions you are feeling are completely 'normal' but isolating makes it more difficult to deal with. How long has it been since you last used, my friend? Do you have any sober friends or family you can tell this to to help you out & lend you a shoulder? Please, let us know what's going on. We're here & we're  in your corner.

[lonely87501]

I'm feeling isolated and alone I want it all to end.

[nursegirl6572]

Yes, it's very normal.  You've had a false "happy" chemically for a long time, your body has to adjust.

As for doing it alone, not a good idea.  The people that do that struggle a lot more.  Addiction wasn't a battle meant to fight alone.

You don't have to do a 12-step program, there are all kinds of recovery programs out there that would work.  The wise wise folks here always advise that the key to a successful, long term sobriety are the 3 S's.....sources (eliminating them), secrets (telling them), and support (getting it).

Hang in there!!!

[lonely87501]

Thanks for replying  I'm not in n/a I going through this on my own and I feel very emotional. I'm up then down there's no balance in between. Is it normal to feel so restless and agitated coming off cocaine?

[nursegirl6572]

Cocaine comes with once heck of an emotional let down but you'll get through it.  It's more important than ever for you to get help, cocaine is one of the more dangerous drugs out there, it causes heart problems, strokes, high blood pressure, very serious stuff.

You can do this, you'll be so happy you did!  

[Overwhelmed10]

Please let us know how you are doing...lots of wonderful people here, you don't have to feel alone.

[weaver71]

How can we help you my friend? Are you in counseling or NA? Cocaine is a tough one. It takes time to get your emotions stable and feel motivated again. Try to drink lots of water and take walks. Avoid coffee, or any stimulant. Eat protein and keep your mind busy. It will get better, it really will. Let yourself cry, get it all out. Try not to resist the healing, it is so worth it.