Yesterday was really hard, anxiety-wise, but I did make it to my counselor and fessed all.
I am looking at outpatient treatment because I can't afford inpatient and wanted to detox off the opiates first...lots of OP clinics don't take you if you are using them I guess..they want you to go to inpatient first.
So, towards the end of the day I was going crazy at work and called my pharm for a refill of vicodin. I'm not even sure my dr will ok it, but how stupid was that??!! After making it this far and then having to start over?
I have no idea what I'll do if they ok it.
I'm feeling better physically except plugged ears and still pretty bad anxiety. I suffer from anxiety anyway, thus the total relief those stupid opiates gave me..ugh.
I am hoping my dr won't ok the script and then I will just have to continue on trying to get better.
I'm going to an NA meeting tonight.
d