cocaine induse anxiety and cronic physical and mental pain

[eastmids321]

Right this story is gonna be long but please give me sopme advise or something to look forward to . febuary 2011 i was taking cocaine on a friday night i use 2 grams every friday with alcohol all went ok and well before that night i had been using it for 3-4 year on a weekend i am 25 male anyway i had soem sort of physical bang in my head in feb 2011 and i new somethig wasnt right when i sniffed up the coke i went to bed and thort it was drunk druged ect and i went to sleep fully in a state or worry praying it would go away... i woke up the next day and my brain was compleatly numb and it was like some body has injected numb juice in my brain ! in was in a state of panic thinking i had had a stroke !!! i was walking around for days in a worried freaky way so hard to explane but i thort i had damaged my brain...

3 days went on and it was still the same every thing seemed like i was in a dream everything looked cartoony? i was compleaty trumatised i had the biggest shock of my life experienceing this and i went to my doctor and axplained he sed it is anxiety and its flaired out of controlle and basically messed up my chemical inblaence in my brain gave me the strongest antidepressens there was and they nocked me out for 3 weeks i was in bed and nothing seemed to work and it was all geting worse and worse. i honestly can say i have wreck my life i have damaged my brain i went back to the doctors saying theres something wrong dr says mental health anxiety can do this my comment is it is physical i feeel brain dead and nothing seems real at all and my brain is numb .... he gave me more meds and again days went bye and it wasnt working ... i obvisely stoped drugs and alcohol instantly . the days were passing bye and i was in a dream world and in a state of 24/7 pannic i went to the hospital becuase i had convinced my self there was something cronicly wrong , ! they passed me back to my dr and everything was going wrong i couldnt cope i was an emotion wreck .. before all this started i was full of liveyness and a good out going person i used ti get in trouble a lot iv never had anxiety didnt no what it was untill i apparently developed it due to drugs but its wrecked my whole life !!!

so the weeks have gone bye and im praying to god this goes and it never does ... so i decided to date a girl to see if that would help she was ok and full of fun she thort it of me aswell but i was putting a mask on my health so we were geting closer and closer and i told her every thing what happend and she was worried for me witch makes me worry..so we got together i used to go up try and loose my past but with this physical pain in my brain aint gone i need an ansa !! so i started useing google looking up what corses numbhead ect and had a serve OCD constanntly on my computer and my girl was getting mad at me thinking im selfish ect because i dont care about any 1 but my self and my health whitch is true. but then i stared to get numbness in my halms and serve pains in my head muscles and heart felt fuzzy..... my life was smashing me down now i just had a mental breakdown due to it i finally got a refurell to a neuologist. but i used to smell burning in my nose like a bleechey sence and get head pains worm sensation in my head when burning smell comes , my reserch on internet i no every ansa for every single illness due to looking up 24/7! but thinking about it i used to look at numb head body memory loss because my memory is so bad so that worries me and the serve PHYSICAL pains im going through im think sezures ? strokes ? brain trauma ! ?? docs says no its mental how can this be possible !! a few month went bye i finally got a CT on brain whitch was clean ,

i was shocked because i thort i had fluid on my brain but why do i smell burning ect ect ! at this point i couldnt get an ansa i was out my mind i was always falling out with my girl ect so i had a drink for the 1st time in months since i got this illness ! the drink git bad at weekends and made me worse the next day .. i was telling people that i had illness ocd i was obsessed i had skitzofenia because im paranoid so people probs think im not normal constanly talking about illnesses and i think i have this have that ect the next day i hate my self for saying all that when im drunk but then i started using cocaine at weends again dont ask y no body in the right mind would doit but i did ! now that got my girl mad we was in and out relationships constant.. but the burning smell came back and it is constant now so im putting down to cocaine sniffing damageing sinuses permenat or do i have a brain problem now .. so im back docs consectotive i just can controlle what im doing i had serve pain all over body face numb memory loss every fitted a puzzle for a brain tumor ( ms ) stroke ! no 1 is giving me ansers and due to this i blame every 1 elts for my actions ! its selfish i no but i cant help it now i went back to a neuologist because my sonstant problems are leading to i dno ... i had a MRI and that was clean ! but i dont understand why i feel dead ! i am in mess i think o its friday il have a few beers to kill my hypocondria then that leads to coke and i hate my self for it next day and promess i wont do it again but i always do ! iv lost a lot of freinds due to paranoia iv seen syciatrist for a diagnosis paranoid personalty disorder . genrelised anxiety disorder and helth anxiey..

in and out my relationship my girl got pregnant shes 2 years older than me so a baby what i didnt need due to my sereve issuses i need to sort my self out before all this has happened so i have to try and be a good dad what i have to be but im constanly parnoid that people are calling me and my ocd on internet and teling peps when im drunk whats wrong with me makes me more worried because i think i have made my self look stupid i just cant cope its a horrific cycle im in and no body understands because people close to me think im selfish i am i admit but im constanly conserned about my heathi know the drugs and alcohol keeps setting me back but is there a way back from this ?? iv lost my mind i dont no what elts to do ?? why all these phycial symtoms ? muscle spasms constany. smell burning water .. feels like fluid on my brain .. brain twitches .. cant feels my hands or body ... presure in my head .. slured speech ... ECT there lots but i think i have sead anough thanks for reading my story many thanks .....

[london_man]

When I stopped taking cocaine my mental state was a mess with paranoia – I was also suffering from panic attacks.  A combination of paranoia and panic attacks lead me to believe that I was going to have a heart attack or I was in the early stages of cancer.

My opinion (I am not a doctor so seek a professional for clarification) is that the cocaine has affected your mental health and you
need to seek professional help.
My advice would be:
1) Stop using the internet to source medical conditions as this makes your paranoia worse- I did the same and it really does not help
2) Go back to your doctor and ask to see a shrink as they can help you deal with your mental issues. I saw a shrink and it’s a massive help to speak to someone that can help you understand what is happening to your mind.
3) Get checked out my a doctor for physical health
4) Try CA or NA  

I know from experience how horrible it is to constantly feel like you are seriously ill and it was probably the worst experience in my life – I was unable to sleep and worried 24/7.
I have been clean just over 8 months and believe me when I say that your physical and mental health does slowly improve.  
 

[eastmids321]

FORGET THE POLL VOTE THING. I DIDNT MEEN TO PUT THAT I CLICKED WRONG BUTTON AND CANT REMOVE IT ! thanks for the comment i have seen several doctors but all keep sayin diffrent things thats why i wanted person oppinions manythanks....

[IBKleen]

Hi,

I don't understand the poll or how you want us to vote so I skipped that part.

Trying to diagnose something such as this on the internet will prove fruitless and I think it is dangerous. All you will get is people's opinions. You need to see a doctor and find out what is going on for certain.

I wish you the best and hope you find the answers.