Thank you everyone for your responses!!
CRSeaside - Thank you for your advice. I am currently on a medicine called humira which is really helping my arthritis tons. If I hadn't got caught up in these pills I would be feeling awesome. I know that at this point in time I do not need these kinds of pain killers for my pain. Motrin or tylenol work just fine. The first time I ran out of my prescription after the humira started working I thought to myself "great, I am feeling good and not in pain 24/7 so I won't even need any more pain medicine", then withdrawal hit and I had no idea what was going on. I had never experienced that before. So then I had to keep taking them to keep withdrawal away. It wasn't even for pain anymore. I just hate these stupid pills. I have only gotten as far as to post on here. No one besides my mom and husband know about my addiction and I'm not sure if I'm ready to talk about it in front of a group. Hopefully you guys can be my support for a while. :)
Jifmoc - I'm sorry about your mom. My mom's cancer completely came outta left field. Cancer effing *****. Regarding pills, I have enough to last me through the weekend. So withdrawal is definitely looming.
Skrilli - I will try and do that but for me tapering is soooo hard.
Again thank you for responding. Support means everything to me right now. I really know in my heart I can get past all this, it just takes such a tight hold on you. I will come back and keep you guys posted on how I'm doing.
Quit now and hold on to those extra pills you got for later (bedtime). If you didn't do a lengthy taper then it will be pretty ugly withdrawl. Well, That's what it sounds like will happen and would happen to me if I were in your shoes. Good luck
Wow, so many similarities, in terms of specifics, I have w/ you. Around 8 years of prior using, lost my mother to lung cancer in March, and never had a problem w/ anything until I found those lovely demon pills!
Firstly, you, me and tons of others are in the same boat. Good people, professionals, etc. Anyone can be an addict. So, you're just an addict who is caught in the cycle and wants to stop: GOOD. It is very doable. The first thing you need to do is cut all sources. That means, cancel the script coming in Feb., guaranteed you will use it if you have it. Delete ph #s etc. If we have access, we can't do it.
You can follow the thomas recipe for stuff to aid in wd symptoms. As you know, they suck! but there is no way around it. Just gotta do it.
When are you out of pills?
Thank you for your post. I know when I've gotten off pills in the past, my husband doesn't offer what I need either. He just says these pills aren't good for you.
We will be here for you. Try to figure out what alternate pain relief you'll need. I like Alka Selzer. Plain aspirin.
Have you considered a support group?
IMO try to wean off with the remaining pills. Life is tough. I'm glad you have great kids & lots of friends. Sorry about your mom. Maxy