day 4

[jenjen1966]

Hi all. Just stopping to say thanks to all for your posts. Today is day 4. What an improvement from yesterday.  I have been reading this for hours every day. Just couldn't post. I'm on my phone.  Imodium, Gatorade and my heating pad have been constant companions. Still feel like poo, but definitely better. I weaned down from 7ish 10/325 to 2 then ct. I'm sure I would have given up without finding this. The only thing I can say that was helpful for me, was that as opposed to taking showers I used a heating pad. When I would get in the shower I would shiver. It seemed to make the cramps worse. So on night 2 I remembered the heating pad. Thank you to all who have had the guts to post here.

[jenjen1966]

Wow. Well its been a day already. Day 6. Boy I really didn't think it would ever get here. Got up and went into my tiny town for l-tyrosine. Of course no one had it. And I really can't even begin to face driving into a bigger town 1+ hour one way. What I wouldn't give for a little fairie to bring them to me. Managed to walk for about half hour down by the lake. But now I'm done. Curled up with my heating pad in 80 degree weather. So very ready to feel "normal" whatever it is. Thanks for listening and for helping me get thru all this!

[denise3606]

Boy do I understand the headaches...Drink lots of water and I took two Advil and more water...Time helps too and more water...Have a good day..Hang in there Denise

[toothfairie]

thanks so much Jen!!  i'm hoping and praying all will be ok!!  hope you are doing better today!!  :)

[Comingclean2012]

Hope you are doing better today! If you get a headache in the future you can try a hot shower! When I was pregnant I wouldn't even take a Tylenol lol and my doctor told my the shower would help. Something about it reversing the blood flow from my head which is what usually causes headaches. It could also have been high blood pressure which sometimes happens when detoxing due to the anxiety. Just extra options if you need them. Great job girl and keep it up! Hugs!
Keri

[hawkdove]

Well done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Your over the worse I am certain !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have accomplished something money can't buy . !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Keep talking , tommorrow you will be even better than today !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God bless from Manchester UK VInce :)

[jenjen1966]

Just wanted to say good luck at work this afternoon. Be strong. Will be thinking of you!

[toothfairie]

you're welcome!! any time!  yes it does come in waves.....good days and bad....good hours and bad.....i'm ok....little nervous about work tmrw,...but i got lucky and only have to work half a day tmrw....go in at 1...wish me luck!!!  lol

[jenjen1966]

Thanks for the tips! Found some Advil sinus in my cabinet. Seemed to work. Or maybe I'm just in a good spot. The elephant seems to be climbing off my chest too. Thank goodness this is coming in waves now. At least I see light at the end of the tunnel. I have been functional for quite a while the last 2 days. And by a while I mean a couple of hours in a row a couple times a day! Lol. But its enough to give me hope. How are you today?

[toothfairie]

sometimes if advil doesnt' work i try excedrin migraine.....it works for me most of the time....even tho i don't have a migraine....but make sure you eat something with it because it has aspirin in it i think.....if you can get to the store tmrw??  try and pick some up.....cold compresses on the neck and forehead help too.....lie down in a dark room and slow your breathing as much as possible too!  hope that helps a little and try and rest....and yea looking at that small screen on your phone doesn't help  :(  

[jenjen1966]

Help! Anyone have any suggestions for this stinking headache? I'm day 5. Had a pretty rough start this morning, but better in the afternoon. Now bad again for a few hours. I'm learning to deal with the general agony of my back and legs, but holy cow, this headache is going to be the death of me. I don't have a computer, so I post and read on my phone. The glare and small print hurt too bad to even be on here. I missed you guys! I've tried Advil,heat, a bath. I'm out of ideas. Thanks for all the help. This has been a life saver for me the last few days!

[clean_in_ks]

YOU'RE DOIN GREAT!!!  You said you were "crazy sick, but not scared" does that make sense?  HECK YES it does!!  Fear and faith cannot reside inside of us at the same time.  Fear of the unknown can be so powerful.
And you have equipped yourself.  Way to go!!  Also, HUGE KUDOS for the pharmacy, check the bag for norco, experience.  ACTION like that is so healthy and rewarding.  I actually can't believe I DO that stuff when I have to, I get in my car and say, "did you REALLY just DO that?????" Hahaha!
A counselor once told me it doesn't do me any good to have the "knowledge" in my head if I don't ACT on it.  I have to remind myself of that ALL the time.  
You said you were alone and bored and didn't have any energy to do anything.......I can relate to that, too, but an idle mind is trouble.  If you can find ANYTHING that makes you laugh, you tube videos, listen to music, watch old movies, anything......but don't just sit, do nothing, and think!!  That's what "rat face" wants you to do.  If you say, I'm ALREADY on Day 5, NOT I'm ONLY on Day 5.......you will be feeding yourself some "good" food.  It won't always feel this way or BE this way..........keep pushing thru!!
Blessings to you~

[jenjen1966]

Thanks. Maybe ill try that. Much easier to get. I live in the middle of nowhere, so getting to a town for the l-tyrosine is an ordeal. An hour each way. The physical part is better too. Today has just been an emotional ride. I'm not usually much of a cryer but have been most of the morning. Just feeling not like me. Whoever that might be. Stay strong!

[Success007]

I'm day 4,    7 hr energy drink worked for me yesterday. I drank only half. We are in the same boat. Hang in there.   Never again will i allow a class 2 drug to over power me.     Hang in there, you can do it. We can do it, together.

[jenjen1966]

Thanks for the help. No boost or ensure for me. That stuff made me gag before all this. Lol. Have been trying to eat healthy, Gatorade, lots of vitamins. I give myself b12 shots every other week, and had my husband give me one last Sunday. So I'm sure that helps. I think I was just so disappointed when I got up, it started the stinking emotional roller coaster early. Walked around the block. Opened all the windows. I'm alone and bored with no energy to find something to occupy me. Ugh! I'm only at the beginning of day 5. It will get better.

[Pat1956100]

I still find the morning the roughest. It takes awhile to get our bodies going after sleep and especially when we don't get enough sleep.
Make sure you eat something and drink lots.
Did you get any ensures or boosts?  They really help and are so easy to get down.  Lots of nutrients and I just found I felt better after I drank one.
I wish i had one now lol.
They sunshine will help you too.  It's pouring rain here but at least it's not snow.  
You are doing great and I am so impressed that you cancelled that script.
Stay strong, it will get better.

[Teresa1717]

YES! Go outside, It helps so much! Take a nice long walk and entouy the sun. Today you are just hitting a wall and as time goes on you willl hit less and less of them. I promise. Day 5 is great! On hour at a time and you will get through to Day 6 and before you know it, to your new life pill free!

One foot in front of the other!

[toothfairie]

sorry Jen that you are feeling bad today....yes i promise it does get better!!  i had a bit of a down day yest.....but that's to be expected.....i put opiates in my body for years and years....i can't expect to feel good in a week....but you are on the right path!!   please keep posting and yes get some sun on your face.....it felt really good yest on mine....keep up the good fight girl!!  you can get to the other side of this....we are here for you!!!!

[jenjen1966]

Well.... Day 5 has not started well. Woke up about 4:30. Been emotional since. I just keep telling myself this is normal. Took 2 years to get where I was, can't expect to be better in 5 days. Not gonna lie, it stinks. This is beginning to feel like its never gonna end. It's beautiful here today, so I'm sitting outside hoping this will help some. And a walk a bit later. So very ready to feel normal. Whatever the heck that is.

[Comingclean2012]

Makes complete sense! I hardest part for me was the unknown of what the withdrawal would be like. I even went to a drub rehab facility to ask what I could expect. I told them the truth, that I was chewing fentanyl 100mcg/per hour patches about 1/2 to a whole one a day. The lady there told me 4-6 days and then I'd be fine. Boy was she off! I was in complete misery for 11 days and finally started feeling a tiny bit better each day after that. I started posting on this site on day 6 because I was feeling worse not better and low and behold she was WRONG! There were people on this site that gave me the correct info and even though I wasn't happy to hear that I could feel like crap for another week before seeing improvement, I stuck with it since I was already half way there! The unknown is always the scariest! I'm glad you found this website lord knows its been like therapy for me, just talking to others and hearing success stories did wonders for me stay on the clean & sober path! You are doing great and by me being able to help others know what to expect it helps to remind me why I WILL NEVER TOUCH ANOTHER ADDICTIVE DRUG AS LONG AS I LIVE! : ) hugs and good luck with your continued sobriety!  

[jenjen1966]

Well thanks for the praise, but I can't honestly say I'd do the same now. I felt ok earlier. I really needed Gatorade and some kind of food. I've had digestive issues since my tail of my pancreas was removed 2 years ago. That's what started this whole mess. Feel like death right now. But, for me, expecting it helped! I can do it....if I know what it is. That's why this has helped so much. I was crazy sick, but not scared. Does that make sense?

[Comingclean2012]

Meant RX the stupid auto correct always makes me look illiterate! Lol

[Comingclean2012]

Congrats on staying strong! Not a lot of people could cancel their Rex knowing it could make all the discomfort go away! You are an extremely strong woman! Great job and I believe you'll do fine now that you seem to see a light at the end of the withdrawal tunnel! Lol hugs!!!! ; )

[toothfairie]

yes you are def on the better side.....glad you got out and got supplies....just keep hydrated as you know i'm sure.....eat when and what you can....and keep posting here!!  we are here girl

[jenjen1966]

Well... That was fun. Got cleaned up, put on a little makeup and went to town for supplies. Had to stop at the pharmacy for other stuff.  I live in a small town so I'm a regular there. I asked them to make sure NO Norco in my bag. I'm sure she got it. What was up. Honestly I don't miss it a bit. The last 4 months I spent trying to talk myself into this, then the last 4 days of hell. No thank you. Not again.  So now I'm super tired, achy, hungry but food is gross. But I know now I'm on the better side. Thanks again to all.