First Post, thank you

[theirmama]

I've been reading this forum on and off for almost a year trying to cope with the fact that yes, I am an addict. My DOC, Oxycontin (any mg I can get). I never ever thought this would be me. I'm 28 and the mother of three great boys but somehow got lost. My ex was using behind my back with a "friend" from work. After about three months he told me what he was doing and asked if I wanted to try, no and no again when he asked the second time. The third, I said yes and I loved it. Couldn't believe what I had been missing out on! I'd never done any illegal drugs except for the occasional puffs of weed. In my mind, these were prescription drugs, not mine obviously, but they were prescribed so they had to be safe, right? WRONG Anyway, i'm sure you all know the downward spiral...more, more, more! I am semi-clean for 7 days, I say semi because I used vicodin to help with the WD's but no oxy's for 7 days. I actually am feeling really good, because of this site and you people. I've been taking tons of vitamins and amino acids to help and this morning I woke up feeling like me again, no more cloud, just me. I plan on posting more but really needed to thank all of you this morning. You are all helping more people than you can imagine! Erika

[cathy5841]

i am so glad you are done with the vics.  thats another nasty drug. lol  i did oxys too so i know the hold they get on you.  keep posting here and we will help you through it.  i am glad you love your boys enough to use them for inspiration.  i too am firm believer in prayer..hey thats how i made it.
cathy

[theirmama]

I took my last vic on Sunday, so I am done with those. I don't know what to do about aftercare as of yet, but I know I need to do something. I'm having to re-train my brain to realize that I can do all that I need to do without the pills. I'm thinking NA, but then my disty secret is out, but so is theirs so it's ok, right?? I know what the A stands for so I know it's alright, just need the guts to take that step. I have three little guys depending on me and my biggest fear was getting into legal trouble and not being there for them, so as of right now, thinking about what their lives would be like without me is keeping me from calling my connection. That and prayer....

[confused456]

Hello! Welcome! Good job on day 7, but as Cathy stated, you should not take Vicodin, it is also very addicting, and you will find the same spiral happening to you again! Stick to it!!

[cathy5841]

congrats to you erica 7 days is great.  are you still taking the vicodin? if so you really need to get off as soon as possible.  we are glad tobe able to help others on this journey of recovery, since we have been there.  have you checked into aftercare?  that is really important.  another thing you need to is make a life plan.  you need to be prepared for what you are going todo when your are faces with the drug or even a trigger that causes you to want the drug.  stick around you will learn so much.  

welcome to the forum!!!
cathy