Can anyone help me ?

[depressedmomof4]

I have been using hydrocodone for about 2 1/2 years . I had a hysterectomy about 2 and half years ago when i was 28 years old.   I am happily married and have 4 beautiful children .   I am highly addicted to hydrocodone and want nothing more than to stop the insanity .   I am tired of worrying constantly where my next pill is going to come from.   I  have never been addicted to anything before.    I just take the pills now to function,   when I do not have them , I can barely get up out of bed .   I want to be free of this , Forever.   I need help .   I don't know where to turn.. My life was so much better when i wasnt using this drug.   I scheduled alot of things for my family and children.   In the summer time we used to go swimming almost every day of the week .   This past summer we didnt go at all .   i want  my old life back.  Can someone please tell me how to stop using on my own .  I have tried cutting down and it doesnt work .   I have to quit cold turkey ,   I have the money to buy off the street,   so that is my biggest problem .   The problem is that is where all my money is going .  I have about $100 a day habit..  That money could be used in a much better way.   I am taking any where from 8 - 16 pills a day ..  Lortab, Lorcet, Percocet , Vicodin , etc etc, whatever i can find .   Pretty pathateic .   I was 1st prescribed 60 lortab 7.5, after  my hysterectomy, then for my 6 week check - up - 60 more .  That is all it took , BAM , i was hooked.   Please someone help me ......

[MontanaGurl]

i am so sorry for what you are going through.  it is an evil thing to have the want for pills, i am about sick of pills, you take them for pain and to help you function and than like you said bam your hooked, i had an accident in october and instead of getting lortabs they put me on morphine and now i ran out 2 days ago and i am knocking or ringing the doorbell on deaths door.  i really, really sumpathize with you, if i can help you in anyway or form please let me know, everyone is here to help each other. keep us posted, ask questions and BE STRONG.  

[troubleinohio]

your story is so similar to most of us here. The good news is that you CAN do this. you CAN get off the evil frickin pills on your own, for good. And it sounds like you really are ready to do this. That is the first step.....realizing you have the problem, wnating to change that, and willing to commit to the efforts of quitting and staying quit. Its hard work, very hard but oh so worth it. you CAN get your old life back....and in fact it can be BETTER than your old life too if you recover yourself correctly (meaning you find out the reasons why you used and what "voids" you were trying to fill, lots of soul searching and improving your life as a whole). Im working on that part myself still, its a neverending journey. Im sure no expert but Im somewhere along that pathway anyhow =)
THe first thing you need to do is cut off all contacts that you get pills from. Delete the #"s from your phone, and sadly, you may have to distance yourself from friends if they are the ones you are getting the pills from. But isnt your life worth it, and your children's lives worth it? Which would you rather have? Your friends around that you get drugs from, or happy healthy children and a mother who can fully take care of them again? when you really think about it, its not that hard of a decision to make.
Hope i made some sense to you. Welcome aboard, you just found the greatest forum on earth. I really believe its a true life saver. Keep reading and posting!