Day 6. ct 110 mgs methadone

[kleighn]

It's back to work for me tomorrow and I'm feeling like poo. Still crying spells but nowhere near as bad as yesterday. Anybody have any suggestions for chills? I mean I am freezing. I sleep with a heating pad...my apartment is set at 77 and I think I'd feel okay if that would stop. I'm going to go for a drive and blare some music... my counselor always told me that I am disassociated from my feelings. Wellp. .. here they are and they're screaming at me for suppressing them for so long. I'm feeling really alone right now. I want to tell my mother what's going on but she'll just worry and I hate when she worries. Oh and plus then word gets out to my step dad and so on and so on. I'm thinking about going back to my old psychiatrist tomorrow. Maybe she can prescribe me something that would help? Bad idea or good idea.
SSending love to those that are struggling.xo

[gnarly_1]

Hey  congrats on day 6 you really doing great for 6 days your 1/2 way there as far as the phyical withdrawal goes as for the tears they wil start to come and go as your emotions stabilize. I hope you got the whey protein shake mix 2 a day until you start to settle in and start to get weel remember you are in this for the long haul I went from 150 to 1mg in 8 1/2 months and still went threw all your feeling now remember this drug works is very cyclic just when you think you got it beat it comes back with a vengence the trick here is to bask in the glory when things start to be good and just know there will be days that you wont even feel like getting out of bed this is all normal keep posting for incouragment we all want to see you beat this thing good luck and God bless Gnarly.....ps if you need to just talk to me feel free to message me................  

[kleighn]

I just wrote an entire paragraph and it got deleted so anyways I'll say what I just said in a shorter matter. Thanks for pushing me through. Tomorrow is 10 days for u and 7 for me... feels like it's been one long day to me. Today started out like yesterday horrible and feeling sorry for myself but I got myself up and to the vitamin store
I bought  bottle of passion flower, b complex, l tyrosine, and an allergy pill with antihistamine in hopes of helping me through sleeplesssness. Keep on keepin on lady. Forcing a smile on tear filled face  is the other hard part of this. I asked a pharmacist at wal mart something about a vitamin and she asked what I was using it for....... lol I got the dirtiest look ever. I was like don't **** with me right now just give me some info!!!! No but in all seriousness, we are doing great. Warriors always do great. Take care doll. P.s
We have the same name only I spell mine with an e

[Frankenkristin]

Hey lady, day 9 for me! I know work is gonna suck, cause it has for me these past two days, but keep your favorite song in your head, and tell everyone you have had the flu, and they'll leave you alone. You are my warrior!
We got this, were the baddest of the bad!!!!!
(Also, I feel like death)
Trying to stay positive!