Good morning world - welcome to day 6

[hollytabor]

To say I'm happy that I've quit taking painkillers would be an understatement.  Though I really didn't think I'd be able to - I was terrified of the withdrawls.  I'd wake up in the middle of the having panic attacks of just the THOUGHT of not having pills.  That's nuts, right?  

I think the fear of withdrawls are actually worse than the withdrawls themselves.  

And the funny part?  It's Day 6 and I have far LESS pain than I did when I was on opiates.  I really think my body was creating pain as it craved the drug.  

I never really had restless legs ... I had some herky jerky movements, some moments of wanting to crawl out of my skin, but never anything super consistant that went on for more than a day.

The worst was two days of almost non existant sleep coupled with hot flashes/cold sweats.  And the exhaustion.

Yesterday was my day 5 ... I went for a mile walk with the dog, did laundry, went grocery shopping, executed a big birthday party for one of my kids, went out to dinner ... and I lived.  Was I exhaused?  Holy crap.  But I felt free.  And not for one second did I think of popping a pill.

I was driving the family to dinner and the sky just looked so beautiful ... I stopped the car just so we could look and I said a liitle prayer to God thanking him for giving me that beauty to see and the strength to get through this.  

I truly feel like I've been given a second chance.

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 6 days clean!!  Embrace life, hold your clean time sacred and run with it~~sara

[Innerstrength67]

That's awesome!!!! One day at a time is all we have. I am so glad what Ypu said about panicking at the thought of not having any more pills. It does sound crazy to people who don't get it but everyone on this forum gets it. I get so scared and I know I'm creating the fear in my mind. Question; did you follow the Thomas Recipe?
Congrats again!

[littlebit667]

Wonderful!

[tomskat]

Congratulations!!! You're doing great!! yes, the opiates actually do put you into more pain. All the opiate receptors in your brain get filled up and then they start working on the other receptors,like for pain,and you end up hurting more and more.

But sounds like you're out of the woods,mentally!!GREAT job fighting this!!Stay strong and keep your guard up!!~A