help my ship sunk today

[bama88]

hello and wow...i gave in to the pain. i can not do this anymore. I've tried to be strong. heck i tried to be stubborn. but honestly my pain levels are thru the roof. both knees hurt from toes to butt...and im going to pt in awhile. so here's what happened....my mom and husband went to doctors office today earlier and told him what they observed. yes im mobile to a degree. but really hurt. last night i wanted to go to er. but what could they do? give me a shot? so anyways my husband and mom told the doctor what they see...and he said i need a knee replacement on left knee...and i should think about going on disability...so he wrote oxycontin for pain. no break thrus....i know that roxies are my true love...i can't snort the oxies...i don't get high from oxycontin er. after all i have learned i won't take more. no way. i don't and won't loose my car again. so im gonna manage my medicine....i don't know what to do. am i setting myself up for failure? i took one at 9 and finally can move without feeling like ice picks are in both knees. and i go to doctor on wed...and back to pain managent on 27....i am sorry if o let you down....i want everyone to know that...i will still be around if you want me. sorry bama fell down.

[bewitched_queen]

How you doing bama? I'm going nuts, not gonna sugarcoat it. WDs are horrible & I wanna remember this feeling so I never let myself get here again. Its so hard for ppl who really have chronic pain and get addicted. I'm feeling you sister, I'm in it to win it. I cant do this anymore. It has my soul. I've got to get it back & you take your meds RESPONSIBLY & expect no more of yourself than that.

[littlebit667]

you have a plan and if it works for you then that is all that matters!  I just don't want you hurting with no recourse!

[bama88]

I've missed you addicted2long...i thought you were mad at me..and if i made you so im sorry

[apike31108]

Quit being stubborn and take your pain meds. You can start over once you aren't in legitimately pain.

[Addicted2long]

Oh no bama..text me if u wanna talk

[bama88]

we did keep 3 but rhe rest are gone...am i stupid