feeling hopeless

[Shayda]

I started smoking pot again, after going almost seven weeks without it. It's been a couple months now, and I haven't gone one day without it, smoking about a few grams a day. I know it's just weed, but I don't want to go through this all over again, it's already taking a toll on my family, and on me. I even have a cough from it.
Right now I'm pretty upset, I don't have any weed and although I smoked hash today I just want to get high. I almost thought about buying ecstacy. I really do not want to go down THAT road again.
I'm generally just feeling sad and unmotivated. I don't have anyone to talk to.

[Shayda]

I have already been addicted to E, so I'm not gonna go there again. I do know what it feels like to lose things in my life, I dropped out of highschool because of this. I'm back in though, and I'm going to try and cut down on the pot. It's just tough though, my family is really religious, and are constantly trying to mold me into my sister, who is the perfect daughter, never had a smoke or drink in her life. It's very frustrating, seeing as they can't accept me the way I am.
I think I might see a consellour again. I've been to lots in the past but haven't gone in a while.

[gizzy32]

The good news is you quit before for 7 weeks and you can do it again. Since you said it's taking it's toll on you and family, then you know it's time to stop. Do you hang out with friends that are smoking? Now your thinking of buying extasy and that is somewhere you don't want to go. I did E a few times and the first time I did it was also the first time I tried cocaine and from that moment for the next 5 years I found out what real pain was and you are not prepared for what lies ahead if you make these choices.

Your so young, with you whole life ahead of you so try to find something in your life you love doing, that is healthy and will not steal your future. Stick around and keep posting, you can learn a lot here. Drugs are a dead end road and your life is worth so much more. You can do this. Good luck!

[allaboutmary]

Hey, Welcome to the forum. Many on here are addicted to pain pills, but I believe addiction is addiction. Doesn't matter if it's pills or pot.  Like most of us here there is probably an underlying reason for your abuse and wanting to get high. Sounds like you might be suffering from depression also. Can you get to a doctor and maybe get on some antidepressants to help you through this.  Keep posting and reading. You will get a great education on addiction and meet some great people here.