during taper

[jayeye]

is it best to lay down a schedual?

should i allow myself a dose at a certain time or take it when i feel i need it?

[LeaAnn807]

Certain dose at certain time.  Have someone hold your meds and give them to you at the scheduled time.  That way you don't have any control and won't be obsessing about it!

[jayeye]

i dont know if that will help me not obsesse bout it lol.

im sure your right on getting somebody to hold them for me....i obviously cant be trusted....now to think of who the person can be.

how many milli should i be dropping a day a dosage my usual routine is as follow

wake up b4 even getting out of bed i pop a 30mg roxy.....take a show and usually snort another.

around 10am i usually leave my desk make my way down to my car and snort 15 or 30mg depending on my "stress" level

around 11-12 i take my "after noon" does usually another 30mg oral

4pm comes my good job on making it thru the work day you deserve another 30 oral

when i get hom around six i usually blast another 30mg or 15 if im running low

then the night time dose around 7-8pm 60mg oral

then my nigt gets under way i will snort any where from 2-5 more 30mg pills.....basically i have to dope myself up to the point where i can no longer keep my eyes open and i pass out for the nigt

oh my god it sounds so bad once i go back and read what i just typed.....what did i do??????? =*(

[LeaAnn807]

Ok, the first thing is to stop snorting them.  Just swallow to taper ok?  Just reduce your dose a little and when the WDs from that drop in dose stop, drop again.  Probably once a week.  But NO snorting.  That has to stop now, ok?

[jayeye]

that would be a big first step!

I am going to take that advice....i know snorting them makes them even harder to kick.......I wont snort another pill today...i have to stick to it....i could do it!


thanks tram

[LeaAnn807]

Sure you can!  You can do anything you set your mind to.  I am proof of that and so are many more members on here!  Get mad and stubborn!!!  Tell yourself that you are DONE letting this crap ruin your life.  Take control of your life back today!  There is nothing better than realizing one day that you no longer need a pill for relaxing or cleaning or sleeping or going to dinner or a movie or ANYTHING!  

I'm done with pills!!  You outta join me.  You are worth it!!!

[jayeye]

theres nothing more that i want right now then to be free of these chains.....like you said its like i need it for everything....i cant even go on a vacation with out panicing..wondering weather or not i can afford/have enough to last me the vacation.

im missing out on so much right now!

would you mind telling me a little bit about your story?  how long you were hooked?  what were you taking and how much? and most importantly how did you beat it and how long did it take you?

if you dont want to share this with me i do understand.  Its just helps me realize that i can do it when i hear people like you speaking about being sober after and how you were able to set yourself free

[LeaAnn807]

Well, I'll try to give you the full story in the condensed version!  I have been basically addicted to everything but heroin, amphetamines and alcohol!  I've been on every benzo, every opiate, cocaine, barbituates, sleeping pills...hmmm....I think that covers it.  I have been to rehab in several states, several times to some of them!  My family tried everything to help me, but until I was ready, it wasn't happening.  I caused myself and my family so much pain.  But, one day, I had enough.  E N U F!!!  I didn't go to detox.  I didn't go to rehab.  I didn't have any fancy drugs to help me.  I just stayed home and stopped!  This last, and worst, time was tramadol.  I was told that it was safe, but I only have myself to blame!  There is such a thing as Google!  I should have known.  No pill makes you feel that wonderful for free.....meaning without potential for addiction.

It's a hard thing to deal with.  I was actually sad.  Like I had lost my lifelong companion.  I'm having to learn how to live all over again.  I had been addicted for about 15 years on and off, and I am 37 now, so I'm having to learn to be an adult too!  (I'm fighting that one!)

I honestly believe that if I can do this, anyone can.  I was a "hopeless" case!  But here I am.  A hundred and something???  days clean!

So, see, you CAN do this!