how much worse is this going to get?

[shortyma336]

so i went downt to 10 mg of meth last friday by sat night i was starting to wd. now by night time i feel broken my body hurts so bad. in the morning the only thing gets me up is hope for relief from my dose. i still ache during the day but it isnt going to kill me. i am sup to go down agian wed im just afraid of how much worse is this going to get. am i just in for another 2 weeks of this wd is it going to get worse every drop? and if its already this bad what is going to happen when i jump?i know im sup to tapper im just wondering what good its doing me. would it realy be worse to jump now i cant imagine too much worse than this. my skin hurts moving my eyes hurts. im so tire of sweating.i have tappered off pills b4 i was never in this bad of wd while doing that. i have been at 10 for 4 days now and i am not adjuting it is just getting worse every day. what do i do? can it realy get worse than this? i dont want to stay here for weeks just to have to go down again once ive settled and go thru it all over again. how is that a good idea it just seems like a long drawn out horrible strugle i dont know if im up for. but if its really whats best ill keep trucking i just dont know this drug is a mytstery to me. this is crazy why did i do this. help please!

[Teri9498]

    Hi, I know just how u feel!  I'm on 5mg of methadone a day now. I've also been tapering down from 80-90mg a day.  I don't feel real bad, except for the sleep.  Maybe your tapering to fast?  Just try and hang in there it will get better.  I've noticed about the 3rd day after I drop a dose I always start getting more withdrawal symptoms, but about by the 4th day it seems to get a little better.  How long have u been on methadone?  Have u been taking the calcium/magnesium/zinc supplement?  It really seems to help.  Try and stay positive u will get through this!    

[shortyma336]

i started meth almost a month ago. second week of feb i did it to get off pills BIG mistake! i had gotten down to 20 mg of vic a day and convinced myself i had too much going on to deal with the wd i quickly relized it was a mistake i went up to 15mg it was more than i needed i knew that but i got used to it and then when i wanted to start detox the clinic did not want to do it they kept putting me off making me wait i finally made such a pest of myself they took me down to 10 i really thought such a short time at such a low dose it wouldnt be that bad not already but apparently realt fast matabolism i went to 10 friday by sat night i was feeling it hurting sweating last night sunday it was even worse hurting even more by this morning i felt i had been beaten once i got moving it eased up a bit. i am to see the doc finaly wed morning to set my exact detox schedule.the clinic im at fights you on detox at all cost unless you dont pay then its no problem. i have to quit they let me start knowing i had a 8 yr xanax history i cant just quit that and its so dangerous. i need the xanax the meth doc even told me he didnt think i should quit that mabey i should just switch to subs. im not doing that either. i dont understand how or why this tapper thing is the way. it seems like im just wd for a long time can the wd really be that much worse if i just jump from here? the idea that it would be is whats keeping me from jumping. is it normal to have wd the whole time im tappering is it really better to do it this way? just easing into the wd? i have a tapper plan in mind ive gotten from people on here but i did not expect to feel this bad off a 5 mg jump i am going to do the rest diff no more 5 mg jumps.id go slower but the xanax thing is too scary im taking these tiny silly small chips to keep from seizing but its not worth the risk.youve been doing this longer than i is this wd normal is this just how it works? no easy way out i thought bcuz of how short and low dose it would be a lil easier on me but this does not seem to be the case for me i am deff feeling wd any info you can give me would be great not knowing anything is so scary and the docs are all about scare tactiks to keep you hooked. i have good insurance and its good steady money for them i dont trust them anymore than a street pusher making money off me thats how they behave. thanx so much and congrats on getting so low your almost there. i will be so excited when im ready to jump!

[Teri9498]

    Hi, I'm wondering the same thing about just jumping off at 5mg, it's the not knowing that scares me.  But I've head people say that jumping off feels like death and some say they felt the same after tapering down to 0mg.  So who knows.  Maybe u r tapering down to many mg at a time?  I've heard that once u get to 10 mg u need to go even slower.  Thats what I've been doing by myself at home.  I've just been going down 1mg a week and I've heard thats even to fast.  What keeps  me going is just knowing how bad I want off it.  It can't happen soon enough for me.  I look at this way- whats a few months of feeling like crap, for a life of no pills!  If u need any anything just message me.  Take care and hang in there!........your friend, Teri :)

[vicki595]

Just what I think, but if you jump now it may not be much worse!  Then in a day or so you could take your xanax. Just a thought...

In the meantime, be sure you're forcing fluids and eating a little. Get some protein shakes and be sure to get all the vitamins and minerals in.

I can't see you going through this for two more weeks either, only to get another decrease and start it all again!  It doesn't make sense but,again, that's just me...

[minn66]

I don't know about methadone but I do want to offer my support. You may be tapering a little faster, based on what I understand from reading here. Perhaps take it a little slower. I know you are itching to get off of them, and that is good. Just don't be so hard on yourself. Lol, look who's talking! Thinking of you,

Minn

[shortyma336]

Than for the support!  I got really sick to my stomach today the one wd symptom I can not handle I've never had that when kicking before.tonight I think its not overwhelming.yet! Its early. My stomach is cramping same my legs hurt! I think I went to 10 on Thursday I was saying Friday but it was Thursday I think.my thinking has been foggy.its either day 4 or 5 at 10 I hope I'm adjusting! I go down again wed morning but only 1 mg even that is scary now.idon't know how much worse it would be if I jumped now but I knows I'm too afraid to find out after this.ican't imagine.by far my worst wd And I'm only tapering! Wow. I hope my plan to go down the way I plan is going to be OK not sure I'm aloud to say here? If it works ill be jumping in. about 2 weeks

[ricart70]

how are you going to be jumping in two weeks if your only going down one mg .I would really consider listening to vicki and just getting this over with at only one month in.This is the methadone system at work.The last person it is designed to help is the patient.They get you in get you good and afraid and keep you there.
You already feel horrible and the only thing you are hanging onto is the dope.A slow taper will put you right in the solidly hooked zone.
Get off feel like death for a couple of days and resume your zanax and taper the zanax.That is what I would do.Avoid the months of suffering.I hope this doesn't sound mean.We just don't want to see you put yourself through this extended hell

[shortyma336]

i plan to go down 1 mg every 3 days and jump at around 5 or 3 depending how i feel. i would love to jump now i am so tired of feeling like death i just want to curl up and cry and hide and never come out it is most misserable ive ever been, ive never been this ill tappering pills ive quith pills and the wd was not worse than this. i cant imagine more WEEKS of this it is unfathomable!! but the thing keeping me going to get in line every morning is the fear that this is nothing that say i dont dose in the morn that by tomorrow night i will be twice as bad then even worse the next noone can tell me is this the brunt of the wd im feeling at night and in the am or is it just a taste of whats to come. im still taking this stuff and i feel like death i cant imagine whats going to happen when i jump i have no idea how this stuff works its confusing and terrifying! i dont know what to do im so afraid and i have no one that can give me answers bcuz everyone is diff i guess. its almost 9pm here and i dosed this morning i feel beat up and every muscle is on fire! and my stomach is killing me and i went down to this 4 days ago i dont know whats going on i dont know whats going to happen i dont understand how this works i want to give up but i have no choice i will die if i keep taking this stuff im lost idk what to do and the doc at my clinic does not give a rats ..... he cant be bothered to speak to anyone neither can my counciler whom ive never met or seen. i show up they bill my insurance the rest i can go eat it as far as they are concerned. i dont know whats best im terrified and alone. ive lost everyone in the last few months to drugs and prison and all of this is hitting me at the same time its more than i can bare. i pray and pray i dont know what to do. losing it!!

[vicki595]

I think you'll feel worse than this if you stay on and keep going to the clinic. It can't really get that much worse than what you are describing.

But, here we can only give you anecdotal information. We cannot tell you what to do. The liability is too great and it's frustrating for all concerned. Find a doctor or nurse separate from the clinic to advise you. Get some clonidine,magnesium and potassium.  Good luck to you.

[shortyma336]

thats what i think how can it get much worse but then what if it does im alone my babies cant take care of me theyre all sick and need me doesnt wd from meth get worse like 3 days out from jump?? it only took 2 days at 10 for this to start. if this is what my whole detox is going to be like? i cant imagine ill make it some part of me just wants to give up call my people and go back to the pills and try to quit them at least there i know what im dealing with i dont want any of it but this not knowing whats safe is so dangerous

[ImDONENoMore]

Please find another Dr. to talk to.  I agree that the methadone isn't doing you any favors.  And going back on the pills will only put you right back where you started.

Find a GOOD Dr. one who will listen to you and help you through this.  There is a way out but I know it's impossible for you to see that now.  The right Dr. could help you.  Good luck to you. :)