I feel the same way you are right now. It started out as fun...now it's a necessecity. My parents also do not know and I do NOT want to tell them. I have started going to an addiction therapist, that they think is for anxiety, maybe you can try to go to one? It's pretty helpful and a nice place to just get everything out. Do you really want to get sober? I think that is the number one most important thing. I don't think I REALLY WANT IT and that has been getting in my way everytime. THe ativan will really help for the detox...it will help with the anxiety, sleep, and a little with the depression. However, you have to make sure you aren't getting addicted to those as well lol. For me, I have used them to get sober in the past and was fine, I had no desire to continue using them after, but others get hooked to them. SO be careful. Message me if you'd ever like to talk.
I am exactly were you are, i live with my mom she doesnt know about my addiction and i feel the same way with the whole anxiety and evrything i too dont ever wanna do anything if im not high, but now i cant even get high anymore and after i take a vicodin i have w/d 2 hours later, i cut down tremendously the amount i take, i used to take up tp 15 a day now im at 1 maybe 2 a day since i started coming to this site almost a month a go, its hard im not gonna lie cuz myself i didnt want to tell my mom about my addiction that is whats making it so much harder, but if u think u can tell your family it would help you out sooo much...Goodluck
I have to agree, tell your parents, they love you and will do anything to help. There are good outpatient detox programs, go to a na meeting. you have made the first step, just keep going, baby steps but you can do it. pm me anytime you need to talk.
The first thing to do, is tell Your parents about Your addiction, and ask them for Help.
The help they can offer, may be a Detox, and Rehab program. The longer You use, the
harder it will be to stop using. This is a good first step for You.
i started the sma way my doc gave me anything i wanted went frm 2 to 4 to6 750 perks a day then to 100 in methadone i quit wrk turned my self into treatment i cut my self down to 20 mg tried t take my self with colotopin not a good idea you should go to out patient treatment i do and my first taper went ok alot less pain then i thought