Day 4 clean

[mommyinmississippi]

Day 4 clean for me. I'm scared to say the worst is over, would hate to jinx it. I'm afraid the worst of the depression and anxiety is yet to come, especially since I have a history of depression. My problem is this: I have to go back to work on April 27 or May 9 at the latest I'm a hospital nurse and know I would never steal but I fear getting anxiety when I see those and might go running to doctor shop again. Please help!

[mommyinmississippi]

Yep, I'm on Seroquel, Celexa and Wellbutrin.

[dominosarah]

Have you ever taken any AD meds?  If you have a history of this it may not hurt to talk with your doctor.  

[kyle505]

I can't comment on your having a history of depression. Seems that NA is a good plan for staying clean, and maybe get professional help for the depression. Day 4 is usually when we see a light at the end of the physical part of detox. It gets better. The mental side hangs on, that's why aftercare and this forum are so important. Your head keeps talking to you, but the longer you're clean, the easier it gets.
Congrats. Hang in there, and keep posting.

[minn66]

That's excellent! A great start. Just take each day as it comes. One day at a time is all we have anyway. I'm rooting for you. Keep posting!

[mommyinmississippi]

Attending online NA today.

[minn66]

Hi Mommy, and congratulations on day 4! Have you considered NA or another support group, or even counseling? I know it is difficult to admit, but there is no shame in asking for help. You have accomplished a lot already and I understand your fears. I think some kind of aftercare would help alleviate those fears.

Good luck and keep posting,

Minn