Yes I told myself for years that I could just take my rx as prescribed, but low and behold every month I would run out. That's when I decided to get off this merry-go-round and get real with my addiction. Only then can the healing begin. I read all of your posts and I do have sympathy for your dilemma but will the day come when you really quit. I will tell you it 5uck5 having to take the evil oxy for maintenance cause you will need more & more & more to maintain. I wish you luck in whatever you decide, but don't let your addictive brain make the choice for you use the sober part of your brain make the choice. God Bless---Rick
I do not want to pile on, but I will just add my own experience.
I told myself for a long time, probably 2 years, that I could use these pills as prescribed. It was a complete and utter lie I was telling myself. I am a addict and yeah, I had pain and life stuff going on, but I wanted to use. I wanted to USE.
I could never taper, and I had to go cold turkey and cut every last source. Because I wanted to use. I hate the things also, so do not confuse the two. Almost all of use hate the drugs, but we want to use.
Good luck, I will be thinking about ya.
Bryan
My doctor has told me about other patients who have confssed similar things to him. He cut them off. Or so he said. So that's not really an option
The best thing here would be to talk to your doctor and let him help you with a taper plan. That way you can be monitored. Your safety is the first concern here.
Nursegirl, me and my wife are seperated. Right now i am staying with my parents. They are great but are too far away from my son to see him as much as i want. My sister lives 2 minutes away. That is why im moving in with her.
Vicki, thank you for understanding that i am wsy too far gone to jump right now. I have never, not once, in the 7 damn yearsvthat ive been an opiate addict have i taken only what i was prescribed. So if i can pull that off this week it will be a majir step for me.
1. Thank you both again soooo much. I feel like you actually care about me and you dont even know me :-) seriously, when im havin a really bad day and i think about.........well you know. I grab my phone and get on here to read andit makes me feel better.
2. Ive more to say but am tired and typing on a phone. Ill check in tommorow during work, and post more when i get home to my laptop. Good night
Okay! I've got it straight. I'm NOT giving you a hard time on purpose; I'm just wanting to understand the plan and I've got it now. I agree with taking just what's rx'd to you. You take waaaay too much right now to jump!
I know you want this and I know it's a mess at home. We're here for you and I can help you with that taper when the time comes. You know, just taking as prescribed is going in the right direction. It's all a process. It's not a race but a marathon, as we're fond of saying...AND I understand about the secrecy right now.
Do your best and it sounds like you've got some great support with your sister and brother in law. Try to get some sleep...