life's a bitch

[artistica]

This is my second day without vicodin.  Was in a lot of pain going through withdrawls. So I scheduled an appt to get a massage.  I was driving and on my way to the appt when I was at a red light.  Light turned green so I went straight.  A truck turning left ran a red light...before I knew it he was right there...the front of my car was totalled.  I was able to move my car to a gas station right there on the corner.  The guy in the truck took total blame for the incident.  I was physically fine...but unable to breathe...an ambulance came...gave me oxygen...and insisted on bringing me in to the ER.  I refused.  The police officer and the truck driver guy apologized.  The officer said that the guy in the truck was at fault.  A tow truck came to get my car.  I had to pay.  The truck driver guy gave me his cell phone...it was his insurance company that had some questions for me to answer.  I answered some questions, and then had to let them go b/c the tow truck was already at the scene waiting for me.  The amulance left (once my BP went back to normal, and I could finally breathe again.)  I got into the tow truck to drop my car off at the shop.  Had to pay for the frickn tow fee.  When I got to the collision center they asked for my claim number.  I didn't have a claim number.  So I called the guy who drove the truck that ran the red light.  He gave me his insurance's phone number.  I talked to a rep who once again asked me ten thousand questions.  She said that there is some kind of issue with our stories not matching and that the whole thing is now under investigation. GREAT.  Just what I ******* need right now.  So, my car is at the collision center, now under my own claims number that I apparently may never get reimbursed for. WTF??  I am so ******* wishing I could have my god damn drugs.  I AM in pain.  I am not okay.  I should've went to the God Damn hospital...but I know that all they can give me is what I am trying to get away from.  I am thinking of going to a care now to see if they can get me anything to help me relax...what do you all think?  I am pretty shaken up...and I still don't have my god damn massage that I was after....I just want to go into a crying jag. I am not suicidal, just serisously depressed.  Why is this **** happening to me right now?  What have I done?  I hate life.  I am sorry for bitching.  I know that there are loads of people out there with bigger problems in life.  It just seems like God is punishing me.  Last week it was my stolen cell phone, and the 1000 that the IRS said I owe them when me and my hubby make less than 60k together.   now this... I wish I could relax.  I can't.  Now I can surely kiss my sleep "goodbye"  Why is the insurance co saying that our stories don't match? I told the ******* truth.  The guy in the truck told me and the cop "I wasn't paying attention...It's my fault...I might've run a red light."  The insurance company (is also the insurance co. I use) said that their investigation doesn't have a time limit.  It could take however long it may take to get a resolution.  WTFFFFFFF?  I hate this ****.  I took these couple of days off to detox, get school **** done, and get well.  **** all of that...I am not saying that I am going to go off and find me another 100vics or anything...but I sure as **** feel like it.  I am so ******* pissed, my whole body hurts, and my heart is racing....****

[artistica]

We have the same company (the gecko one,) I am telling you everything.  She was a dumb chick...I'll talk to my rep tomorrow.  Hopefully she wont be as inept as the first lady was.  You are understanding the story correctly.  I must've been talking to his rep (from the same co.)  I don't fkn know.  worrying is useless at this point, I suppose.   Getting well is still #1 on my list of things to accomplish.  I will not fear a little accident...I will not fear reality.  I'll get my rental, My car will get fixed, and things will get resolved (even though it doesn't seem like it right now.)  I will the universe to take care of this for me.  All because of you all being here for me....I can really feel the real me coming out a little again.  The real *Jenn* (artistica-shhh) is: goofy, funny, happy, problem solver, helper, lover, realistic, and undaunting.  I do not quit, I do not complain, I used to roll with the punches, and things worked out okay.  Thank you EVERYONE for caring for me and my sobriety enough to show me that people are worth knowing and caring for...and that things WILL work out...there is always tomorrow.  

[sickcookie]

I don't think his company even has info it takes a day or two to touh base with your adjustor and then they take a deposition,I just thinks its the insurance companys canned answer,have you talked with your company yet?

[toxictome]

Something sounds fishy w/the ins. agent...WTF?!?! of course they use a police report...

Maybe its a quack company just trying to bilk you out of some $$$..or maybe i'm not understanding the story right...

Whatever the case...good for you...no drugs...

[sickcookie]

Sorry about your really bad day but thank god you are not hurt(yes I know your hurting).Same kinda accident happened to my daughter,Read the accident report to make sure the officer wrote down truck drivers statement(all his fault)I would also all the police officer to let him know whats going on(so he will remember you).Did you get names of wittnesses.The guys insurance company is not going to admit guilt at this point.Your insurance will fix your ar and go to battle with his company.If this is not settled by time ar is fixed you will pay dedutable whih will be reimbursed when guilt figured out(his).So sorry this happened.Ditto on the bath tomarrow will be a better day,and in a few more alot better.hek the thomas recipe or if you go to hospital only valium.Please do not take a vic you will feel guilty,your brain and body are working overtime.So please hang in this will all work out and even better lean.Ps my daughters car looks better than ever and so will yours.Wish you the best Ps I am 50 days off vics today and dealt with kids accident in first few days,its not pretty but you an do it

[worried878]

Sounds like things cant go anywhere except up....I think when we quit...the demons try to trick us into using...like damn...i dont deserve this...not now!  hang in there

[artistica]

The cop is on my side.  I called him after I delt with that ******* incompitant insurance agent.  He gave me permission to use his name and number with my insurance agent.  But he says he cannot call them...so unless she calls...im still payin for now at least.  The agent asking me all of the Q's who said the stories didn't corraberate said they do their "own" investigation...and don't use any police.  My agent's number and info was given to me via the incompetant *****, and my agent holds banker hours and was unavailable till manana.  
To everyone else,
If it comes down to it, I'll get a lawyer involved.  I will not set myself back to day 1 with narcotics.  Would like a valium though...urgh!!@@@

[toxictome]

Awww...I'm so sorry this happened to you. If you are having pain you can take up to 800 mg of ibuprofen 3x day for a short while. Try that first.....unless something pops up that you didn't have before.

Look at the bright side...you didn't get seriously hurt, ...and the car can be replaced.

The other thing...if a cop was at the scene....didn't he make a police report?  Call the cop shop and tell them you need a copy of the report for the ins. co.

Take care of yourself tonight.... hugs!!

[newmanagment]

ditto to allboutmary, cept i cant stand lawyers either. if ya share the same ins. company, call YOUR agent asap, if ya havent already. even tho they are the same co. , your agent will work for YOU. seems to me they should set ya up a rental, and take care of the tow bill. as for your pain, go to the ER if it is too bad. tell em you were in an accident earlier, and you felt fine, but now you are starting to hurt. but dontcha b takin ne pills!! you are gettting started , and all they will do is put you back to day one. remember why you want to be clean, and ask for non narcotic medicines. best of luck, and i hope it gets better for ya....

[rosebud66]

well you have had a very bad day i see.  hang in there cause it will get better.  just think you could have been high and then they would have thought it was your fault no matter what.  i would say that you are lucky that way.  hang in there tomorrow is a new day.  go take a hot bubble bath and relax.  it is only a piece of metal and you are ok.  can you imagine if you had woke up in a hospital or something worse.  i hope it works out for you and remember tomorrow will be day three of your new life.

[allaboutmary]

Ok first, the thing I hate most in this world is insurance companies. They have a liscense to steal.  I'm probably going to get bashed for this but  here goes. Get a lawyer.  Don't talk to the insurance companies let the lawyer do the talking.  You really don't know how you are going to feel tomorrow.  I have been in 2 auto accidents that I walked away from just bumps and bruises (i thought) next day whole different story.  I know this stinks because you are getting off the pain pills and you still can. I bet you will need alot of Ibprofen tomorrow.   Things will get better, just hand in there.