The reason you've not been clean more than 24 hours in the past year is because of your addicts brain - the mental part of addiction is something we have to deal with forever.
Try detoxing, stay clean for awhile, and then we can answer your question much more clearly.
K
THere is so much HOPE!! You have to want it, and if you want you will achieve it!! We will help you as much as we can, but remember you will hear things that you do not like, just know it comes from concern, and experience. You say you need help, that alone tells me that your stronger than you think you are, thats great, so pick a family member that you feel close to and let it out, start with just one person for now and you will be surprised how much that person wants to help you and support you.DID you cut all your sources? Thats a must!! did you tell your doctors? I am not sure how you were getting the pills but you need to seal all the cracks in order for you to be successful, so now is the time to start getting all your ducks in a row and work on making arrangements for aftercare. Setting yourself up for success will make this process easier for you, you can do this, take it slow, recovery is a slow process.
I really reallllyyyyy hope I can say I know what its like to get through this!!!YOU GUYS GIVE ME HOPE! That this WILL pass I truly have to do this I just need support I need to get the guts to tell my family I need help! but then my brain keeps telling me if I tell them thatll be the END of it but I need to tell them so I can take the leap to succeeding! thank you all! you guys are truly amazingly strong people!
Rosy, Rosy, Girl you have come along way B-A-B-Y..Very, Very Good!!!!!! lol
For me the mental part is really tough BC I have to face myself and my addiction head on without anything to "numb" the pain. I have to deal with WHY I used.... The WD's were so easy and I understand what everyone was trying to tell me. I have the support of meetings and my sponsor but I am responsible for reaching out and for battling my cravings. Its a disease that we must battle daily and for life. We have to be strong and KEEP OUR GUARD UP! The mental part is so hard and that's why we must tell our secrets, change our playground, get aftercare, and build a good support team! Best of luck to you.... "NO ONE WILL TELL YOU IYS EASY BUT EVERYONE WILL TELL YOU ITS WORTH IT! One choice at a time!
I agree with Dane! and just to add a bit more on the mental, sometimes you will be having a great day. Everything is going fine, and then wham!, out of nowhere a craving will hit! That, is when I am at my weakest. When things are going good, and I think "why not?" I'm doing good, withdrawals weren't that bad....... Those times are when I have to fight the hardest! I expect to get cravings when things are going bad, but I did not expect to have them when things were going well!
Best wishes! Keep posting.
These type of pills and many more unbalance the brain transmitters and chems and the receptors are involved. There is a whole lot to it..When we physically kick the habit we also are healing our brain..This is where the mental can come in..We have to re-adjust back from the removal of these Stims. It becomes a emotional and physiological aspect that can be a bit difficult to endure.
I have seen your last post..Right now you need to just concentrate on one thing and that is to get rid of the pills and stay away from people, places and things that can cause triggers. You have to want to do this..The physical will be over in no time, it is the mental that will take awhile..If a person can stay in-tune with why or what they use these for, they might be able to have some control not use these Substances for other reasons..Like Stress, Drama, Depression, to get the Energy, etc. It takes a lot of hard work to stay clean..BUT it has soooo many rewards if we do. It takes a lot of Support as well..We can not do this alone.
If you know your way around here then you can click on my name and read a few things about this disease that I put in..One was "The Nature of Addiction", and the other one is "Addiction and the Pleasure Pathway beyond Willpower"..There is so much info out about this disease..Do some searching around..You will be very surprised how much is out here these days..
You are very young and I would hate to see you throw your life away on this..A lot of us on here are old time users for many years..Please get out while you can..I wish you the best.
Bless