Bad day, cravings high...

[lostsoul2]

I'm 3 weeks clean, but with 20 or so people coming over today I am craving hydro like crazy.  Also, I have spent my life feeling guilty about never having contact with my dad.  Holidays are always tough because I always agonize about not calling him, but there was always so much pain, as he was an abusive alcoholic.  Well, he died last fall, now I'm sitting here with the same guilt, even though I know he's dead.  I have hidden behind drugs for so long I don't know how to act.  I'm clean, but the anxiety is killing me today.  All i want to do is pass the day so I can go back to bed.  But my wife's entire family is coming, and my mom, with whom I have a pretty strained relationship, too.  Sorry for whining, but if anybody reads this thank you for your time.  I needed a place to vent.

[worried878]

Must be a bad day for craving...bad weekend for craving...something is in the wind...you will be so busy shortly u will forget about it

[Shotrock]

I feel for you, Day 12 I had 6 hour meeting with several hundred people, didn't think I could do it, no way! Even put 2 vics in my pocket when I went to meeting, but i didn't need them it was OK. you'll do fine 3 weeks is awesome! Great Job! enjoy the day you've earned it.  God Bless.. Shot Rock day16

[persnick38]

I feel your pain. I was in pretty much the same boat yesterday. Posting was the best thing I did b/c I got lots of great support and encouragement from that. I had a family dinner last night and haven't made it through one of those without pills in years - yesterday was the first. When it got tough, I went outside and walked around a little. I also just tried to stay as busy as possible - help cook, do dishes, etc.
Keep your eye on the prize. I felt SO good after making it through that without using. You can do this too. Keep checking in with the forum if you need to - that will also help.

[corey411]

Try going for a walk of a drive if you have time. This is always something that I have to push myself to do but it always helps. If you know how to meditate that can also be relaxing. Understand that this craving will pass more than likely before your company arrives. Keep yourself busy. We have to keep overcoming these trying times and the more we do the easier it will get. Good luck, Corey

[confused456]

Awww.....do not feel bad and whine away! Everyone has bad days. I am sorry that you are going through this. I am sorry for the loss of your Dad too. I am sorry that you have these feelings, and I know that you can pull through it. Take deep slow breaths. Try to relax and do something active to occupy your mind if possible. Hang in there. You are doing great.