Crack addiction

[Galyna]

  Hi everyone.
I am looking fir help to recover from CRACK.
Rehab is not an option fir me, I want to do it private , on my own. Can anyone tell me - how dis you get clean? And what kind of "tools" did you use?
Crack is destroying my relationships with person I am about to get marry. And in a mean time Crack is what makes " all problem to go away "!

[AShellof_Me]

Oh girl! I am so happy to hear from you :)! You're making great healthy strides for yourself.

Yes, I totally hear you with NA... for some people, it saves their life and works. For me, I prefer AA. Most AA groups are very accepting of drug addicts - face it, addiction is addiction when you get to the core of the issue.

Anyway! I can tell you're a smart lady. You're right about needing the tools to stay sober. THIS community right here is one tool... talking here gaining wisdom from others. But I still do want to encourage you to seek out and try maybe going to an AA group. There are also groups in the church if you are open to that called Celebrate Recovery... I've been to several different ones in different states... they vary greatly in how they are set up, but it's also a good program and structured along the lines of the 12step AA program.  Whatever you choose... alone is not good. left alone to our own devices... we fall. My best thinking lost me my beautiful home, my daughter, my savings... everything... I had to get outside of my own head. :) I will be praying for you!!

Stay in touch!! Keep coming back!  

[msdelight]

Congrats on your week without using. I know it is very hard. But you must keep it up and keep on going. If NA doesn't work for you, see if you can get with a private addiction councilor. Don't give up. Find a way.

[Galyna]

I went to NA, had sponsor and everything I told him went all the way around. I don't want to go to meetings and also there are a lot of people at the meetings that still use or sell drugs - I know that for fact.
I am trying to stay clean around my family, I just need more tools to be able to keep my sobriety.
It's been a week since I used. It's hard .
PS  THANK YOU  

[clean_in_ks]

GREAT POST, AShellof_Me!!!!

[AShellof_Me]

I'll be praying for you, Galyna. You don't have to do this on your own... frankly, I know very few who truly can do it on their own. I'm assuming you're here because you want help. Meetings AA or NA - I prefer AA... I am a recovering crack addict sober now almost 4 years - my sober birthday is June 27, 2010. I couldn't do it alone. I needed others to show me how to do it. My life was unmanageable. Believe me honey... I tried.  I could stay clean for up to 5 weeks at time... funny that seemed like a long time at that time! wow... but I couldn't stay clean and sober. Not alone. I needed help of others - from God - a higher power.
I would gather a guess... you do too.
You can reach out here, but I suggest finding a meeting close to where you live, It's called anonymous for a reason. Check it out. Go in. Take a seat. LISTEN. Learn. Do NOT talk unless someone asks you to. At least not in the beginning unless you're in crisis... mostly because honey, you do not know anything about being sober... and you need someone to HELP you. :)
That's all.
I'm here. I'm a fellow crackhead too... former, yes, but hey you can get past this. It can happen - just not alone.