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[challenger10]

O.K. everybody...today is a new day and there are some of us who feel pretty good and some of us who feel like s..t. I am one of the ones who feel like s..t, but reading everyone's words of encouragement is extremely helpful..so THANK YOU!!!!   To the ones who are suffering: Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

[minn66]

I just wanted to say hi and hope that you all are doing well. I struggled this morning to go to work but somehow I managed. Thank you to all of you for your positive words and encouragement. I am so thankful I found this site and you all. We can do this. I know I have a long way to go but at least now I feel hope.

[jlannaa]

thank you for the kind words, i'm sorry you are not feeling well but you know it does get better i wish you all the luck in the world :)

[vicki595]

Are you currently working as a substance abuse counselor?

[minn66]

Hi brightentheday! Your name is so full of promise. At least you found this site. I have been doing so much reading since I found it today and while I wish that no one should have to go through this, at least there are people who understand. We will take it one step at a time together. Right now I am engulfed in a cold sweat and am shaking. I keep telling myself that it is mind over body and it will get better.

[brightentheday]

I haven't posted my story anywhere yet, but the breakdown is that I am withdrawing from Vicodin for the second time in a year. This time I had only been taking a lot (at least 80m a day) for about two weeks, but my supply ran dry and due to the nature of how I get the pills, I can't get more. I not only feel ashamed of the addiction, but ashamed that I have been stealing the pills from my dad. He usually hides them but he's been in the hospital/physical therapy and I was able to search well enough to find a bottle full of the stuff. Today is my first day without any Vicodin, and what I experienced within the last hour trumped anything I dealt with the first time. It's freezing outside, my window was (and still is) open, and yet I was sitting her breaking out in a sweat. I noticed I was rocking back and forth in my chair while I cried...the anxiety I was feeling was so overwhelming. After calling my dad in tears, restless to the point of extreme aggravation, he had my brother give me a 10mg Vicodin pill from his big stash that my brother keeps in an old safe in his room.

I'm still feeling restlessness in my legs. I've taken Mirapex and Klonopin to help with it (I get Restless Legs Syndrome and both those drugs help), but they haven't done a thing. So day 1 has sucked, soooo bad. I really hope I'm feeling well enough to sit still and not burst into random tears on Thanksgiving, which happens to be my 25th birthday.

[minn66]

Thank you all for being so nice and welcoming. I feel so guilty, everyone thinks I have a stomach virus. I can't believe I ever let myself get so bad. I have been on my medication for four years. My neck pain is terrible and wouldn't you know that it is raining today, which makes it worse! My husband made homemade chicken soup yesterday and as soon as I got home he told me to put on my comfy clothes and he would warm me some. He is such a good man and I feel like such a fraud. Thanks again for being here. I kept thinking about my family, my job, and you all. I will post again as soon as I can.

[challenger10]

Thank you for your support!!!!

[dominosarah]

You can and will make it thru today~~~sara

[challenger10]

Hi there!
Good for you...you are taking the first steps to getting your life back. You even have more sobriety time than me (less than 24 hrs.)..I'm just beginning to go into the abyss. If you were able to go to work then realize you are beginning the downslope of your detox...yes, there is still going to be cravings, but at least you won't physically feel like s..t     Stick with it..don't give in/up.
challenger10

[minn66]

Hi. I haven't posted my story yet but want let you know that I am going through the same thing. I was taking 5 Lortab a day and didn't realize that I was getting sucked in. I have chronic neck pain and have been going to a pain management clinic. I quit qt on Friday and it has been hell. I haven't told anyone because of the shame. I had to go to work today and have taken so much Immodium I probably won't ever go normally again. I found your site while doing a search on the web while on my lunch break. Thank you all for being here. I did not mean to take over this thread, just wanted to say hi and let you know you are not alone. Please pray for me too, that I can make it through the rest of the day. Thank you for listening.

[dominosarah]

You 2 keep fighting with everything you have.  You both deserve to live a clean healthy life.  I remember those days of feeling like sh!t.  It will get better.  You may feel like crap tomorrow but that is a step up from feeling like sh!t!!!  Turn up the music, get busy or soak in the tub....just be good to yourselves~~sara

[justwanttobeclean]

Thank you..I'm right there with youfeeling like $hit..worse than $hit if that's even possible.