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[zoea]

Well I've owed my guy some money for a while. He just came to collect.
First time i have never took from him. I am so proud. The past year i would not of been able to walk away.
Today i did.
So now i.am off to bed with my babies for a good cuddle.
Im not in anyway boasting just can't believe i done it.

[rizboy]

nice one m8!bet it felt really good?
How you holding up with tings?

[minn66]

Zoe, what a huge step!  You should be proud!  :D

[NeverDreamed]

So proud!!  Good job.  The taking was there and you didn't!  Be proud of yourself and enjoy the cuddle with the babies...

[zoea]

Won't lie the thought was there. But my gosh. I would never of done this even a few days ago.
Keeping my head tho. as tomorrow the demons may be back.
Thank u all for your continued support and words.
U all helped.
Zoe

[zoea]

Thanks mate. Holding up ok. How about u my love.

[zoea]

Thank u very proud.
One day at a time tho.x

[zoea]

Going to cuddle right now. Thank u night x

[rizboy]

really well thanks.gone 11 days with no weed or alcohol so am buzzin!!Getting addicted to NA meetings now(maybe not a bad thing,eh?)so its all good.Reduce to 0.4mg of sub in 2 weeks so onwards and upwards.nite nite.chris

[zoea]

Well done. Keep going. U do realise u mind is much clearer without.
Keep.strong.
Zoe.

[snakejones]

Ya cant get too much cuddling! Or hot baths.
I am beyond proud of you about fighting the urge to use. That's HUGE.
Post often, and also feel free to PM me. I think you are wonderful.

[ImDONENoMore]

I'm proud of you zoea.

[LeaAnn807]

: )  Very proud!!!

[dac70]

Whoohoo!!  happy dance! U r awesome!!! Keep going! What day r u on??

[MikeInFrance]

I would have expected nothing less from you Zoe! Good job girl!  Talk to ya' later...

[zoea]

Well friends thank u. but glad how i feel today. is not how i felt last night. Otherwise i would of used.
I done nothing but dream of it. Not sure if its coz i saw him but i keep thinking.
I thought i would of woken up feeling wonderful. But just craved all morning.
Well i won't use. So I've just put a roast in the oven. Hopefully i will feel better after.
I will keep re reading your posts to keep good lol
Thank u all x

[minn66]

I have faith in you, zoe. Good for you for putting that roast in. I'll bet it will be delicious!

[texaslady68]

Zoe,  I am so very proud of you.  I know how hard it is with a dealer in your presence.  This was such a HUGE step.  Sending you ((((((hugs))))).

[zoea]

Seeing hIm just relighted  thoughts. Just thoughts.
Roast was lovely. But i am still ok and will keep going.
It was just a bit depressing that i thought after last night I had control .
I know it life long battle now.

Thank u all x
Zoe x

[rizboy]

I can think loads better with out weed and alcohol,i cant have one beer its gotta be a least 4 cans and a ten bag.Its only the past month ive realized im a "proper" addict which is good.Keep them fists up and be ready to knock any craving out!nice one m8 for not caving in