dat 5 of c/t detox

[bullet1]

hello its bullet again....day 5 i deel better every day now ...im over the worst...things get s bit shakey at times but i just put one foot in front of another....im very sad at times i feel like ive lost my best friend...now i have all these repressed emotions now and im thinking more clearly...its the hard part i have to start making ammends and clearing the slate...ive pulled some shaky **** to get a hold of these devils pills....i want too tell poeple what ive been thru since coming out of detox ive felt like heell even on the pills...just wanna let evrybody know still fighting the hard fight...and it is dooable...its time to clean mouse now and do what i have to too make me comfortable in thie recovery...im just so torn right now cause everybody ive hurt...i will do the right thing in time by the grace of god...and for the new comers dont give up its worth it...love and light too all bullet....

[sickofpillsandpain]

congratulations on your clean time! i havent quit a 100% yet but im on the brink... i have heard about the emotions all comming back it dosent sound very pleasent but, i think its a good thing to feel again. make your amends when your up to it. it is important that you do sence people were hurt along the way but if i were you i would force it just because it needs to be done. do it when you are ready! and again, congrats!

[Bad_Obsession]

I gotta agree with IBKleen on this one too.  Making amends right now, so soon in your recovery might not be a good idea.  I don't know about you, but I have told all of my friends and family that I am getting clean SO many times, that they don't believe me anymore.  So...I'm getting clean, gonna put some real clean time under my belt (a few months) and then start to make my wrongs, right.  Then and not till then will I start apologizing to everyone.  I think that 1) they will see the differences that I am making in my life and that will speak volumes without saying anything and 2) I think when I finally do apologize to everyone, if I have some serious clean time under my belt, it will mean a lot more to everyone.  They have heard me say I'm going to get clean so many times, that if I get a few months behind me, they will see that this time I am finally serious, and I mean every word I say when I'm saying I'm sorry (this time).  I hope that makes since....but really it's up to you.  It's just that being so early in your clean time, you emotions and thinking aren't back to normal yet.  Could be pretty dangerous...but ultimately, it's up to you and how you feel about it.  Hope that helps...

[IBKleen]

I don't recommend, at all, that you going running out and making amends right now. That is some real tricky stuff and in some cases amends are NOT made verbally. You have to know where and when to do it and I don't think it is a good idea at day 5.

Will you be engaging in any aftercare?