day 8 woooo...almost blew it..almost!!!

[Ldytaz]

so I decided to clean off my dresser and what do I find the 15mg bottle and 5 mgs from last week when I jumped my taper.. I looked at the bottle opened it and thought" i wonder if I take a little if it will make me feel better.Anything to stop these endless shakes... I DID NOT DRINK IT!!!! YAY me.... So I poured them out...Now I need to go back in there and get the rest of the empties and get rid of them too.I had started saving them to divide up when I start my taper from the 100 mg .. It is a constant struggle every minute of every hour of every day to stay away and stay clean.If you have just found your way to our community God bless u..We can all over come with a lot,Did I say,A lot of willpower and the want to be clean.. wow I get to get up tomorrow and say day 9... Thank u everyone who has helped me through this and cont. to respond to my rants..luv u all.

[jugglin]

I just wanted to jump on and show support. You should be SOOOO proud of yourself for getting rid of the extra.  That is a true test to how bad you want this.  You are doing great!  You have passed one of many tests that will be put in front of you.  Keep moving forward and doing what u r doing!

[VICourageous]

Very Good Ldytaz..I have to agree with gnarly..Had never been through so much he11 on any substance like Methadone. I think you are doing a good job out here. Hope and Pray you just keep on pushing forward..Support in all areas of our Life is a good one. Besides on here,we should have some one on one, and talk face to face with other Addicts. Keep up the good work and proud of you for getting rid of the pills.
Bless

[Ldytaz]

Thank u so much.. I thank god everyday for bringing me to this community.. I needed all u for the support u just cant get from ppl who have no idea what we go through.Yes they r understanding and supportive but,we as a group r all going or have gone through the same things in one way or another. I fully believe in the  1day at a time  and can say it many times but the fact is we all back step a little in our heads. Just that one lil thought of going back can lead us on the path of destruction.We have to fight that urge everyday to keep our head clear and on the right path.My symptoms tonight,still shaky,sweating lots(lots),restless,headache from hell..Oh and I must not leave out the constant trips to the bathroom.Joy joy.. But,with all that is going on,I am still ok..I have survived, I will keep on going and I will be back..Luv to all  and u gnarly r a God send to every recovering addict who has and will have u on their team.Go u !!!

[gnarly_1]

HI    well you go girl and im so happy you got ride of it ''you did the next right thing'' and that is what this is about we can no longer take even 1 or we risk going back to where we were before we quit ''one is to many and a thousand is not  enough I have been foiling your story and for 8 days you really are doing good the shakes should go away in the first 10 days to 2 weeks just keep in mind methadone is the gift that just keeps giving.....it s u c ks but it is cyclic so just be ready to deal with what ever it throws at you ..your going  to be fine recovery is slow but you will get past this just take it ez and remember baby steps this is a race won by the tortus not the hare keep posting for support you got this now it is time for recovery  you been to any meetings yet??.......Gnarly.............