Haven't posted in awhile. I never EVER thought I'd get even this far. Tried for years. Have to say, suboxone was a lifesaver for me (tho I'd advise trying everything else 1st. Who needs another drug ?). I'm a week off suboxone, and tired is my only complaint. No desire or craving for a pill to take me out of it. Withdrawal from sub might come later (?)
However, if I listed everything that's managed to happen in the course of these 5wks, it would sound like BS. Husband. Best friend, never fight, everything peachy for 10 yrs suddenly started lying and cheating. It's the last thing on earth I would've predicted, ESPECIALLY now! May just be having IT relationship so far, but I doubt it & don't care anyway. Posted rambling and upset about this a few weeks ago, but then was too afraid to come back! Seeing any reference to it (even replies to my own post, not just his stupid hidden chats) makes my heart literally hammer & I feel like I'm going to throw up.
Then, my pet of 10yrs DIED last week. ...And there's more. A LOT more. If I wrote it all it'd sound like I was either making it up or crazy.
That's it. I haven't worked outside the home. I have a degree, but after 10yrs, don't think that's going to help. Plus, in default on old student loan so transcripts might be a bit tough. Im getting ahead of myself. The point of this was to describe how isolated, crushed, & beyond devastated about my baby (my pet) passing away & being betrayed like this. I'm still in shock. I have managed to keep my knowing under wraps tho. He just thinks I'm "depressed". Which, of course, I am.
So, for what it's worth, I can tell u that suboxone can work. Especially with all this.
Anybody else get hammered with problems right when things are finally turning around with your addiction? God, I feel like I'm either being punished or tested. Either way it *****.
Good luck to everybody. Hang tight with your plan, it is possible to get off this junk if I can make it 5 weeks - I was eating OC's like they were tic-tacs.