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Hi all!

im sooooo scared, im 28 weeks pregnant, and been on 10/325 of percocet 3 x's a day, i have managed to ween myself down to 1 and 1/2 a day. I WANT TO STOP! i been reading a lot of posts on here, i just been scared to post anything. I'm scared for my baby, and I'm scared to tell my doctor in fear he'll have my baby taken away from me. My mind is racing 24/7 about this, i feel like such a piece of s*** sooooo worried i hurt my baby. Please someone give me some advise. I know I'm gonna be judged like I'm a horrible person :(
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Hi--  If you've been reading a lot of posts then you know that stopping abruptly is dangerous.  You really need to tell your doctor. He/she will give the best advice about tapering,managing pain,or your addiction. Whatever the problem is...you need to get honest right away.

Good luck to you!
495284 tn?1333894042
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Hi and welcome to the forum~~~

Noone will judge you and you are not a horrible person.  You need to talk with your OB and tell him what you are taking and that you are tapering down right now.  He will help you finish the taper and will be able to monitor you and the baby.  They wont take your baby if you are honest with him.  It's the surprises after the baby is born that creates the trouble.  I know you are scared but you will feel so much better after you talk with him.  I take it these pills werent prescribed?
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WOW good to see quick responses on here. No they are not prescribed to be honest with you (I'm a LOOSER!) How do i tell my doctor I'm a junkie while carrying this little girl i love so much. I'm terrified of what he may do, I'm not even comfortable with him. My biggest worry is the damage i may have done already. I know what your thinking; Why concerned now so late? i assure you It's been a nightmare the whole time thinking about this. I feel so disgusted with myself. I've seen people say how percocet causes autism, and many other negative things. Is this true?  
495284 tn?1333894042
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No my dear you are not a loser.  You are talking to a recovering addict here so i understand your thought process and what these pills do to a person.  I am not thinking why the concern now either.  I know the he!! you are living right now and it is miserable.  The important thing now is you are doing something about this.  Many dont.  Do you like his nurse?
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Yes she is very nice. were you using while pregnant? and if so' was your baby okay?
495284 tn?1333894042
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You may want to break the ice and talk with her first.  28 yrs ago i was taking a ton of speed and drinking.......She was fine, very attached to this day to her momma!!
495284 tn?1333894042
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I am heading to work and will be back tonight.  Didnt want you to think i had just up and left!!

If you want to talk send me a pm........sara
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Hey sweetie, sorry to hear about your situation, hope I can help. I am in the SAME situation. I was/am addicted to Hydro's and became preg. I kept it a secret from my OB at first and just kept taking them, finally I broke down in tears and told him the truth and that I was addicted to them and couldn't just stop. (At first he'd ask me if I was taking any meds and I lied n said yes hydro for dental work and he was all "ok well just stop", and I wouldn't say anything. Finally at my like 5th visit I told him the truth). He was VERY grateful I was honest with him and did not get mad and judge me or call CPS and now I am on a taper plan to get off them before baby is born in Apr. The truth will get you a LOT further than hiding trust me I tell you this from my own experience. If you do not come clean you can run the risk of having CPS called when baby is born with it in his/her system. I wish the best for you, but please talk to someone soon ok, plus they can take better care of you knowing. As an addict as horrible as it sounds I sure knew to take my damn hydro everyday but sometimes I forgot my prenatels and I hate myself for it. Just be up front and you will get the help you need! take care sweetie
495284 tn?1333894042
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Thank you for your post~~~
1134902 tn?1296066144
Speak to a dr, they know the best way to deal with these kinds of situations.  There is the possibilty it can cause birth defects, or even addiction in your baby, so the sooner you can work things out with a drs help, the better for you and your child.  There are some medications that are safe to take while pregnant, so speak to your dr.
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Talk to your doctor. Tell him/her everything. This is a great site, but this is a big deal. Praying for you!
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I understand exactly what your going through. I was taking 6 to 8 10/500  hydrocodones a day when i found out i was pregnant. I couldnt kick the habbit and never got the courage to tell my doctor. It was an absolute living hell my entire pregnancy. I worried every time i had to give a urine sample that they would do a drug test, but they never did. Ive never hated myself so much in my life. When i went into labor i was terrified not knowing if something was going to be wrong with the baby. I too was afraid that if the dr's knew they would take my baby from me. But by the grace of God i had a perfectly healthy beautiful baby boy. Its still really hard to live with myself for doing that and I still havent stopped taking the pills.
The best thing to do is tell your dr but I just wanted to let you know that theres other people out there with the same problems. Being an addict really is a disease and i pray to God one day ill find the strength to overcome it. I dont deserve my kids and they definatly dont deserve to have a drug addict for a mommy, so Im really gonna try to change my ways. I hope you can do the same.
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Thank you all for sharing your experiences/advise and kind (nonjudgmental) words. I really thought i was alone. I'm doing really well with tapering, down to 1/2 as of today, I'm not experiencing bad withdraws,  only a little tired, and R.L.S. but that could be from being pregnant. It really does get easier everyday, and i found that taking 1/2 at a time instead of one whole one really helps. I never imagined how quickly addiction can take control of my life, and this happened shortly before i became pregnant. What baffles me though is how easily it came to me to stop alcohol completely when i found out, but kicking these 3 pill habit is such a battle. I need to stay away from certain people who have made the access way to easy, and way to tempting. My new baby, and my family deserve way better than this, and I'm willing to humble myself, and do what i have to do for them. I'm so glad i found this sight, and glad to meet you all on here ♥  
495284 tn?1333894042
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We are so happy you have found us also.  Stick around and keep us posted on how you are doing.  You are never alone~~~sara
1134902 tn?1296066144
It takes alot of strength and courage to put your story out there.  I wish you and your child all the best in overcoming this obstacle!!
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Hi all,

      Today is a new day, and I'm feeling much better, the withdraws from the tapering has subsided, and next step is to rid of them completely, although I'm sure another slight withdraw awaits when completely gone, but at least i have a taste of hope that it does get easier, and i will feel good again. still down to half pill, and i set a goal date to off that. I do admit the mental craving is still there, but i keep coming on here to get through that. since i cut back i can feel my baby move much more. I can't wait to be free of this, and enjoy the rest of my pregnancy, she will be here in April. Have a great day everyone, and to those who are struggling, hang in there it does get better, we are not hopeless
495284 tn?1333894042
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When is your next OB appt?
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My appt is tomorrow  but due to bad weather, office may be closed, that would make my appt next wednesday
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Hi hon,

Welcome to the forum. I'm so glad you came and talked to all of us. You are doing the right thing by tapering off while you are pregnant. Keep going and please, please talk to your doctor about this. If you can't get in to see him, maybe you can ask his nurse to give him a message and he could call you? I know mine was very supportive when I would call in for help during my withdrawals.

Be strong and know you are doing the right thing!
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Bad night last night...Up all night in pain, gonna be very hard to not take a pill today..I should just flush them down the toilet, and this rls i have is driving me CRAZY!
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Went to dr yesterday, and i couldn't do it.....Someone please tell me how to put what i have done in words of how to put it to him....I so badly want to tell him....I also screwed up yesterday, and went off my taper plan..wound up taking 2 instead of half...I will get back on track today, it is a new day
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I'm nomt good at talking either, I chicken out. Maybe you could write something that way there's really no going back. Write out what you're feeling and just hand it to them.  Apologize for writing but explain it's the only way you could make yourself do it. Idk, I hope you find your strength. I know how difficult it can be. Good luck
495284 tn?1333894042
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Our secrets keep us sick mommy.  The longer you wait the harder it will get.  
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Mommy-Going up and down on the dose is not good for the baby. The withdrawals you're feeling are,also,felt by the baby. Believe me,you will not be the first woman to tell her OB
that she has a prescription drug problem.  You really have to be the great Mom that you are and tell them.    You said you like his nurse. Call on the phone and speak with her.
Tell her everything and answer her questions honestly. She'll tell the doctor.

This won't get easier and you'll feel A LOT better once you share this.

We'll be here...let us know.
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