self examination

[devilisadork]

Are not drugs the most selfish pursuit an individual can undertake?

[devilisadork]

Perception is derived from focus.

[devilisadork]

41 years of Everything addiction, 3 months clean. I have just enough brain cells left to realize that I don't have many brain cells left. I feel compelled to help those who could not be helped by the conventional sources, but I am afraid that I am far too honest.

[my_mayberry]

i don't think of addiction in terms of selfishness or selflessness and i think in many cases it's a mistake to do so. of course, there indeed are many instances where addiction is entirely a matter of selfishness...but many times it isn't, also.

taking my drug of choice makes me feel good, but so do many other things that i do for myself. it makes me feel REALLY good...the problem is i hate myself for it. if this were an act of selfishness, the guilt and pain of the addiction simply wouldn't exist. i see it more an act of desperation because it's an effort to satisfy a need i often times have absolutely no control over and thats all-consuming.

granted, there are those who do not feel guilt...who do not feel any pain of addiction at all...who indeed are completely selfish in their addiction....but these people won't be coming to forums like these.

for one reason or another we're all addicts here.....whether it was accident or stupidity that got us here....whatever the reason, almost everyone who ends up here has a desire to quit and i don't believe the selfishness of addiction and the desire to quit can go hand in hand.

just my thoughts, though.

[IBKleen]

DUH on my part. You said self-examination. Sorry, I missed that.

How long are you clean? Are you clean?

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

Why do you ask? Someone in your life or yourself?