We are here to listen whether you need advice or just need to vent. No need to apologize for not being chipper, okay? You always have us to talk to although I know typing isn't the same as talking.
You have accomplished so much in the last 17 days and that's great! You have to remember though, we didn't get addicted overnight and we won't get back to our old self overnight either. I'm sure you've heard it said, "90 meetings in 90 days". The reason behind this is because they say it takes our brains 90 days to repair itself to its previous state. Honestly, I don't think it takes that long. I felt great after about a week but it took me about a month to be completely back to normal. We are all different though.
I know it's easier said than done but try not and get frustrated. It takes time. A lot of it is trying to deal with our feelings each day. That's something we weren't use to doing. If we had a bad moment we would reach for a pill so we didn't have to feel. Everyone has bad days. We have to learn how to deal with them again and it takes time. Everyday isn't going to be perfect. Think back to before you started using. How did you deal with anxiety then? We all have it. We just have to learn a way to get through it that works for us.
A bad day clean is way better than a good day using. Right?
Hang in there Sophia. You will get there in due time.
well guys thanks for the helpful comments.. I'm not sure that it helps but i'm not sure if i should just keep taking it to see if it helps.. I'm supposed to take a 10mg pill 3x's a day,, But i don't think i could take that many these people are crazy.. She said since i was on so many norco i should be able to handle it,, Ha hahah what a joke she is, but anyway i know it is me that has to be in this recovery and not anybody els.. So i shouldn't always trust what the doc says right?? I think it is time that i rise up and stop letting these docs through pills at as while saying ohh you can handle it.. Sorry guys i'm a little frustrated, well my legs are still hurting my head is pounding and the cravings are a @&#$ %
So yeah .. There you have it, And then it's like i am so f'ing axious and i feel i have nobody to talk too... Well guys i'm so sorry i am not all chipper but i am struggling with this at this moment.. I think this addiction just may get the best of me.. I'm not sure my old self will ever return..
Sophia
Hi,
I'm sorry about the effects the buspar is having on you. About 5 years ago when I was being weaned off of benzos, my doctor thought buspar might be a good alternative. I tried it for a few days, and it didn't do much but make me feel mildly anxious. It really takes about 2-3 weeks for buspar to reach full efficacy, and I was at a point where I was almost finished with tapering off of clonazepam and didn't want to start on yet another medication. The way you feel are some of the side effects of buspar though, which is not a benzo.
I would talk about your symptoms with your doctor and follow his advice.
Good luck to you and congratulations on your clean time!
Sandy :)
I found this.... Hope it helps a bit...and congrats on Day 17....awesome!!
BuSpar is a psychoactive medication and it is mainly used in treatment of generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) of mild to moderate intensity. However, it is not effective against panic attacks, nor is it efficient in treating obsessive compulsive disorder and social phobia. However, in treating generalized anxiety disorder, there are few other medications that can compare with BuSpar. GAD is an anxiety disorder which involves excessive and irrational worry about everyday situations and things which is disproportionate to the real sources of worries. There are many symptoms of GAD, which include fatigue, headaches, numbness, muscle tension, difficulties swallowing, trembling, fidgeting, nausea, difficulties breathing and concentrating, agitation, sweating, insomnia and restlessness. However, Gad should not be confused with anxiety that most of the population experiences in certain situations. It is necessary for the aforementioned symptoms to be present and consistent for more than six months in order for GAD to be diagnosed. BuSpar inhibits the receptors of serotonin from reuptaking serotonin, thus increasing the levels of these neurotransmitters, which leads to the relief of anxiety symptoms. BuSpar can also be used in conjunction with SSRI drugs in therapy designed to treat depression.
Hey Sophia....other than the headaches I hope you are doing well. I don't have any experience with buspar but I'm pretty sure some other members do. You may want to call your psychiatrist and tell her about the headaches. Some people experience side effects of certain medications. Sometimes the side effects do subside though.
Way to go on 17 days clean! I'm happy for you!