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[penny1974]

Hi. I hope everyone had a good weekend. I wanted to check in and say hi and I'm still working on quitting. There is no turning back. The fact that Im doing this with my Dr is a blessing. I don't have other resources ( im glad for that) I'm ashamed to say I have not been perfect during this prosses and I have physically payed for it.  I have another drop coming up next Wednesday and I'm looking forward to it. This really has been hard and I understand why ct is the way to go if you have the time to do so.  I can tell that my body is wanting to be done. I know that sounds crazy but it's true. Mentally I'm not ready to jump so I will continue to tapper. But I know that in the end I will still experience w/d but I'm praying that they will be less and the mental part will be less.  Im truly heart broken to think that this has such a control over me at times. I keep up a front of Im so strong when inside I'm breaking apart. Thanks for listening.

[motye51]

Girl>>>>>don't be so hard on yourself, what we're doing is NOT easy! If it was, there wouldn't be so many of us here!  Continue your taper, if that's the way your going with it, and when it's time, JUMP!  I did choose c/t only b/c that's the way I HAD to do it!  I am an addict, and the taper would have been up to me, and I knew I wouldn't do it.  You made a very smart move involving your dr in this process!  Keep your head up, and charge it forward!  This is a war, and at the end you will have the chance to get yourself back!  It does get better, honestly, if it wouldn't have, I wouldn't still be here!

[clean_in_ks]

What are you down to now?
Is someone else doling out/dispensing you your pills?

[penny1974]

In on 3, 7.5 hydro a day. And I keep track. yes I know that having some one hold them is what is suggested by many people on here.

[penny1974]

Thank you. I needed to hear that. Caring support is what I need. At this point I still feel I will succeed its just tuff and will take time.

[hopefullycleanagain]

Hi penny!!  Glad to see you are still hanging in there!! You should give yourself more credit, there is NO WAY I could have just taken 22.5mgs a day and been ok with that, you are much stronger than you think!! Just imagine how much easier it will be on your physical self when you jump on the much smaller amount.  I bet you will appreciate all your hard work then..LOL

Keep hanging in there, I am sure you know the story of the tortoise and the hare, you'll get there miss tortoise, and I am sure you will succeed!

God speed penny, Michelle

[gnarly_1]

Hi Penny im glad you posted your taper is going good just stay at it your doing great so far you will be free of this stuff in no time tapering is hard your body wants more but your tapering by sdoing this you will get clean soon keep posting for support we all want to see you clean good luck and God bless..............Gnarly.......................

[Bamatide21]

Just quit cold turkey after taking 20mg a day for about 5 years for chronic pain. I need help with the leg problem and no sleep. The Dr put me on clonzapam today 2 mg I slapt for maybe 3 hours I have been off for about 15 days. I want sleep, starting a new job next Friday and have to be there at 6 am. I need my life back. Thay put me on hydracodone 10 mg for my back and neck and it helps with the back pain, but I will never do the methadone again. The drug from hell.

[Bamatide21]

Also meant thanks for being a minister to so many people. God will truly reward you for the lives you've helped. Thanks and God Bless