thankyou and sorry...

[sadinmichigan]

My husband decided to leave me today because he is a drug addict and i am recovering..He doesn't obviously like it..all i know is..i am devestated...slap in the face kinda way..things in life are hard..i am not a weak person in general..but my friends...i am afraid i have reached my limit...whatever you want to call it....he actually threatened me to take my kids...HA those ARE FIGHTING WORDS.... and yes i took 4 oxy's..which i never did..and they" just"came my way...isn't that lovely...I am a piece of **** and I am sorry...I don't have a script or anything...it was either that or vodka...sorry the truth hurts..

[cathy5841]

lisa,
stop now...you dont want a full blon relapse nyour hands.  you did it it is over.  no more.  you are dealing with way to much.  please take a deep breath and move on.
you can reach me if you need me.
cathy

[LONESOME]

my friend I'm really sorry not for him leaving you because I know you will be fine with out him but don't hurt your self please just go out and try to be with somebody right now please you will be fine I'm really sorry and I'm with you if you need me ok
GS

[VicUser]

I know things like this is tough to deal with, but if you want to be clean and he doesn't I think it would be a losing battle for you. Don't beat yourself up over the oxy's, just don't do it again or you'll be heading down a path you have been working do hard to get away from. You are not a piece of ***, you are working to become better and that is what is important.

[Firefaery1023]

Honey, I am sorry to herar this but you are definately better without him.  If you need to talk I  am here for you.  My husband is an addict to and not willing to try and clean up.  I will probably be leaving him.Sweetie stop beating yourself up.  It is so hard when things like that happen.  He can't take your kids from you, threaten to have him take drug tests and there is no way the courts will give him the kids.  Actually he will probably back down if you say that.  Please do not feel bad that you slipped.  When stuff like this happens all we want to do is hide our emotions but unfortunaely it is only a temporary relief. I loved taking the pain killers because I stopped crying all the time.  You need this change in your life, it is tough but you will be better without him. We all love you sweetheart and if you need someone to talk to you know where I am.

[LONESOME]

I hope you don't take them please do it for us don't take them we all love you so much you and all of you mean so much to me just snap out of it right now PLEASE!!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Stop beating yourself up. You will get through this one too. You will need to be clean and level headed to properly fight for those kids.

[confused456]

STOP IT!!!! YOU ARE NOT A PIECE OF $HIT.......so you did it, pick up and move on!! You can do that. It is YOUR choice and I have to be honest when I say, maybe this is for the best, He was after all cheating on you and gave you a black eye. You need to focus on you and your kids!! This is not to be mean, this is from one friend to another telling you to pick yourself up!! It was just a last straw for you and to be honest, I can't blame you. Now you have to move on and not get anymore!!!!!!! Hugs

[lostdreams]

You are so NOT a piece of ****! You are a good person that has so much to deal with! Please dont take no more pills, you have come so far and you can carry on doing so. Please dont take them again, you will beat yourself up and it will hurt you more. Please talk to a friend or someone right now, you need people around you. Stay strong hun.

[hopsing94]

LISA ... STOP right now and don't take anymore. Girl after all you have been through,you don't want to go back there. Oxy's aren't the answer and you know that. Nobody here is gonna judge you for taking the oxy. You did the right thing by posting,now do the right thing and stop. I don't know how you got them or where and it doesn't matter. What matters is you. My God Lisa you have come so far. That is not an easy thing to deal with(your husband). Remember you are the one that is getting clean and trying to have a better life. Now get back on track right now. You are needed here,your story has helped so many others. You can do this, I don't think you will have much of an effect stopping right now so do it. PLEASE

[sadinmichigan]

thankyou..

[mshovel78]

wow,im new here and just read your post,i to fight p.d.a. your husband must be something...6 kids,beautiful wife and leaves??? my wife has done close to the same so i can say i know how you feel, how are your kids? thats what matters.your picture says you can get any man...the kids are important, so hard as it is, stay clean! i dont know you but sure feel like i do! good luck

[hopsing94]

First off he's not taking the kids. Thats just not gonna happen but you do need to be clean to fight this. You need to have a clear head right now to make the decissions that are coming your way. Don't let him scare you with talk. Lisa you need to be strong and I know you can.

[mommy52713]

lisa you are a beautiful woman and if your husband cant see that i say let him go. I know it wont be easy but your kids need you. you have come so far please dont beat yourself up over this one time of takng the oc's.tomorrow is a new day and i willl pray for you♥holly

[sadinmichigan]

i feel so much worse for taking the stupid pills than him leaving!!!! A friend i hadn't seen in a long time just "happen" to come over.But I asked...I f he leaves..so be it...but he isn't taking my kids...i'll die first..I just can hardly see my keyboard...i won't take anymore...pi$$es me right the f@ck off...

[GoingToMakeIt]

Mad, angry, crying. All is good. Clean is what you need now. Do not beat yourself up, though. Pills or booze are not the answer. That is an old habit that needs to die.
You can do this!

[sadinmichigan]

how did you know about that........

[sadinmichigan]

who wants some 40 yr old with 6 kids.....and more

[cathy5841]

hopefully some 45 year old with no kids, a good job and a ton of money.  that wont touch drugs and dont drink a drop.

love ya
cathy
p. s. he needs to be really good looking too.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Don't even go there right now. suffice it to say that when the time comes. You will not have a problem.

[Mikeinthesouth]

Hey whats up with the no kids stuff? Kids are great!!!! I would not know what to do without my lil ones.... Lisa read the pm I sent please stop this while you can before it takes all of you. Mike

[GoingToMakeIt]

Oh and never divulge your age. You would pass for far younger. :)

[cathy5841]

mike, i was just kiddin withthe whole thing to make her smile.  i meant no kids for him cuz she has 6. lol    i love kids too.  thats why i am raising my grandbaby.

[sadinmichigan]

omg...i have done so much to try and fix everything...some sweet angel paid my frickin gas bill...and HE wants to take my kids...I don't THINK SO...NO ******* WAY>>>>>

[nursegirl6572]

Hey there....sending my hugs.  I know it doesn't seem like it now....but really, it is the very BEST thing for your recovery, and your recovery is the very best thing for YOU and your beautiful children.

Hang tough, sweetie, just another bump in the road.

P