what opiates rob us of!!!

[mchiurazzi]

it wasnt till about a day ago when i was driving in my car about my 10th day off of suboxone, and feelin good, that i realized that the opiates had robbed from wanting to do anything i used to enjoy. like i used to build hotrods in my garage all the time 24/7 the i started takin opiates and i havent even had the desire to touch a car or do anything that i used to find fun. and now bein sober for about 12 days now i realize exactly just how evil opiates are, they robed me of who i was and i have no idea how i could have let that happen for soooo long! anyway just some thoughs i had now feeling back to my old self again! to everyone quiting hang in there and stay strong it will get better!       Mike

[ChronicPain1]

Wrong assessment of what I was saying there dude. I took issue with something said that was incorrect, and you fly off the handle.

Figures.

[Ella789]

Opiates robbed me mentaly and physicaly.  While they took care of my pain at first, later on it took more to do the same.!

  Mentaly they took away my everyday life,  I had to count pills, make a schedual and plan my life around dr. apointments and pharmacy visits,  then my family started noticeing me when I would run out ahead of time.!  It was so sad!!   I don't ever want to be that way again!

Ella

[mchiurazzi]

congrats on the 17 days!! im only on day 12-13 off of my subs and i already feel better and dont worry it always gets better. good luck on your staying clean!

[sw9281]

Percs robbed me of more than I can say in words. I quit 3 good paying jobs as I could not concentrate did not want to sit in my office stoned trying to do professional work. I felt like a ***** every 4 weeks (or less) telling my DR. how much pain I was in and filling out that silly pain form allowing him to cover his *** for giving me so many Percs. I was in pain but advil would have worked fine. Then I had to go to the pharmacy and feel like I was a criminal filling these RXs. I lost almost all of my friends, my family thinks I am a bum (they do not know about the percs) and my resume is now about 3 pages long. I will be 54 soon and not ready to look for work yet (good luck with that). Without my wife sticking with me I could not even tell you where I would be right now. I am scared of the future. The good news is I am on day 17 off Subs and starting to feel better. I think I will get better over the next few weeks. I am lucky as money is not a big issue although I have lost years of paychecks and my standing as a well known person in my field. It will soon be the time to see if I still have enough in me to bounce back. I am hopeful.

[Flip4910]

Opiates robbed me of my life, its crazy how much stuff I've pawned or stop doing cause of it.  It ***** because by the time you realize all of this its usually to late to do anything about it.  I lost all my friends, including the ones who died, trust, all my stuff, family, you name it opiates steals them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mchiurazzi]

yea they did the same for me i wasnt the person my wife married(far from it) i never wanted to play with my kid, but now things are getting better, i lost all of my friends due to this drug, so the last few nights and tonight ive been goin out tryin to gain my friends back! but i know exactly what you mean hang in there it will get better i promise!

[candothis247]

Thanks for bringing it up. I use to work out 5 days a week, spin once a week which is hard core cycling, I sometimes would bike 30-60 miles on a Saturday, I use to walk 3 miles every day with friends, chat visit, swim and do yoga…. socialize a lot, take classes at the local college, cook, etc etc, These pills have robbed me of my life as I knew it too. Ive done nothing in the last 2.5 years except that I screwed up my relationships with all my friends, they keep me at arms length because I’ve become so weird…unmotivate, isolation, paranoia, I became so mad at them for accusing me of being on drugs, talking about me behind my back, dah, how dare they, my friends, say those horrible things about me. I think ill just go away and that’s what I did. I’m trying to climb up otta here, I am slowly seeing things a little bit more clearly now. Each day is a struggle to stay on this taper, but I did it today again and your stories are constant reminders to me that I want my life back. I'm looking forward, not backwards.... kind of excited about my future.....

[mchiurazzi]

i mean i dont know what dude comes on an addiction form for to tell everyone that opiates are his saviour! i mean most of us are on here because were tring to get or stay clean! but yea it feels real good to finally be back to normal!

[worried878]

agree mike..there is a good feeling when u feel excited bout sumpin just because..it is different than the false sense of "fun:" or whatever u wanna call it that we get or got on pills...it is a very "clean" feeling and it shore feels good when u start feeling again

[mchiurazzi]

this may be the way you look at it but you ever stop and think your not the only one thats in pain 24/7?! i am also and i can tell you yea i moved around a lil easier when i was on em and was pain free, but i was in no way the same person when i was on the pain meds, the made me not give a dam* about anything or anyone , all i cared about was makin sure i wasnt in pain and that i had some more pills, and thats no way to live. if thats the way you choose to live go for it, i hope you eventually can realize what those things do to you, and opiates shouldnt be used for long term pain the addiction and doses will just keep going higher till they no longer work.

[soxfan0622]

THANKS,
i AM IN THE BEGINING PHASES OF TAPERING DOWN. 6 MONTHS AGO I STATED USING. I WAS WARNED AND DIDNT LISTEN. I CALL IT "THE DEVILS GRIP".  I KNOW I CAN DO. THE STORYS ON THIS SIGHT ARE SUCH A GREAT SOURCE OF INSPIRATION.
THANK YOU ALL

[ChronicPain1]

That *****, opiates allow me to actually function through my pain. There is the main difference for those that say there is none.

[mchiurazzi]

why yes they have the barret jackson auctions in scottsdale about 15min from my house!, and damn those are two nice cars, its model t by the way. im workin on a 67 chevelle, and a 442, cant wait to get started on em again! thank you all

[refusingbondage]

ohhh so many things.. I was never really 'there' when using.  My mind was on one thing and one thing only.  I enjoy talking now.  I enjoy seeing friends now.  I enjoy sex more now.  I enjoy music so much more now.  I never really wanted to do anything when I was using...I am so busy on the weekends now and loving it.. I have emotion now- sometimes good, sometimes bad - but still emotion which is a great thing to feel again after so long.  Congrats on 12 days!

[Ella789]

Arizona, isn't that where they have the aucions shows, like I see on tv?   Yeah, I love to watch those.  
My husband has a restore job on a 56 chevy out in his shop.  Plus an old model T or A, I can never get that straight!

Best wishes on the quit, and yes it is amazing what I have taken for granted and let go of during the past 5 yrs,  I hope to get moving on getting some of my own fun projects started back again!
Ella

[merrymaria]

glad you are coming out of the fog...yes they do rob us of many things...i can remember the first week i quit how a simple sunset seemed so beautiful...well when i was numb everyday... i never really noticed.....and yeah i wasted almost 4 years on those evil pills but i can t change the past...i can only look forward to the future...whatever it may hold....i am normal now and it s wonderful....good luck to you and keep on moving forward and maybe build your hotrod too...maria