who should we tell about our addiction, and who are we accountable to.

[hippy]

i saw this question below, asking do we or should we tell
our husbands and wives about our useing.
should we tell our children, and   freinds.
i myself have told my wife everything then agian she is a recoverind addict for 18 years and has a better understanding then most wives.
my children know i am a recovering addict, but i do not go into detail with them.
It has been my experence that we need to be accountable to someone.accountabilty is a big issue, involving honesty.
most of us have lived this secret life hideing pills spending ungodly amounts of money and sometimes even to the point
of destroying our money situation.
being honest is very important but i think we have to have caution in this area, there are lot of people who think
once and addict always an addict.
one thing i found , once we have found someone we can trust we need to let them know when we relapse.
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[vikequeen]

I have been re-using for about a year and I have no sex drive at all, I have not had sex since Ded 01 My husband takes 4 different high blood pressure meds so he has none either, or he could be boffing someone else, if I were not on pills I would care but I feel like this do whatever you want just don't ask me about my pills you dso your thing and I'll do mine. Anyone else have probs with no sex drive? I mean I am dead down there sorry to be so blunt. I am so scared of withdrawl. I get so depressed when I even think about it. I have been doing bad things and they are catching up to me, I have a tooth thta needs a root canal but right now it does not actually hurt but I have been going to dentists and getting hydro, one dr gave me 24 with a refill and weeks later another 24 with refill then rx'd me one more and said no more, the second one I went to I paid out of pocket and he gave me 20 and a week later a refill but my check bounced. Then I went to another one who absolutly gave me nothing, when I left I stopped payment on the check, with the explanation that he did not treat me he did nothing for me I told them I would pay 26 for the xray, then thurs I went to this guy and everything was fine he gave me 15 vikes, then when I got home his recptionist called and said my check was no good well, my hubby's direct deposit comes thru mid thurs/fri morn so I told her that, I even calle her the next day to tell her all was well and the check cleared, well, Those MF's called every pharmacy in my town telling them not to fill it. I think its cause they probably thought they were getting taken which this time they were not or at the most they have like a little dentist chat room or something and know about me, so I will not find out til mon whatt the deal is but my dentist shopping days are over for sure. I have some klonopin, clonidine and ultram to detox from I just wannt to stop doing this **** and have my old life back, I was creative, I wrote, I did so many things I cant do now I was an Ins Agent now to read the relisencing books make no sense to me. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up clean and refreshed and happy. Thanks for letting me vent hugs and kisses to all love Badd

[hippy]

im sure you are reading this, you are mistakein
about what i wrote , go back and read it.
i said  it what you are thinking that is sick, like thinking
some one elses famly member, what i was say in a round about was
what about when you think of somes mom.
to me that would be sick. and that road of sickness
is a long road.

by the way are you the the person giving this board all the
problems,  just a question.
if you have read me you know this is no place to screw around,
people lives are at stake here.

what is your beef with mr. michael.
he is who he is.
thall shall not judge.

you would not want to walk in his shoes.
you seem to have difficult time in your own.
peace and i am here for ya any time

[taeme]

I had that kind of second chance too.  Just thought you'd like to know. HEART TAEME

[chrisby]

Hi i'm still trying to reach anyone trying to recover from meth addiction. I've been taking buprenex for 10 days now. and already feel alot more emotions. I really think this method of detox is really going to work. but I still am wondering what its going to be like when I go of the bup. Please if anyone knows anything about this type of detox. I would really like to talk, It would really help me. It seems not alot of people get off meth and I really wan't off!!!   HELP!!!!!!!!

[Sundown]

I understand how liberating the is feeling of recovering your sense of physical and mental being is. When I was using I lost a lot of weight and looked like death warmed over (not in my eyes, but in the eyes of those around me, who, by the way, were afraid to say anything, becuase I have since found out they thought I had cancer). Over the last month I've gained back all the weight, and then some. I eat, I exercise, and I wake up each morning looking forward to the new day.

I'vr also found it much easier to talk to the people around me. I no longer keep the door to my office shut in hiding, but talk to the people I work with. I'm finding out about THEIR lives over the last 6 months, as I missed ever hearing about any of it. I can finally laugh again, and be interested in others lives, rather than what was my miserable exitstence.

Wishing you well.
Sundown

BTW How's Guam?

[taeme]

Okay, then I'm going to bed. Good luck! Tomorrows another day.  And well be here, hang in there.  HEART TAEME