Hello

[Mikeinthesouth]

I honestly have to say this for the first time the wds aren't hitting me like a ton of bricks. It was only a week steady a month clean behind it. I feel cold and clammy but not sick throwing up. This might actually be a lil easier on me this time I let my self fall. I can't seem to get it going for long I see so many winners here and I want this thing so bad, but then I just forget the first few weeks of hell and think of the feeling of euphoria and the desire to just do everyday things. I cannot be the addict that follows this sin to hell so maybe God with mercy unlike me will give me a break since he helped me stop it after a week. Honestly you guys I don't feel well likke I feel the last few years but I am not stuck inside I am just so tired of the lifestyle the false desire to just open my eyes. I don't consider myself a stupid fellow well let me rephrase that I don't consider myself to be a smart fellow by no means but I know a snakes bite once and that will be it the snake will get stepped on not that mess though. Funny how this can deceive us all the way into hell for some. Not me I can't let I don't want to let it. This last week for me has been sort of a blackout sitting outside in my yard today trying to figure out what day this is then trying to figure timeline and I think I know as I said in my previous post to you guys I told someone what happened the day I disappeared from home for awhile and I have to try to deal with it as best as I can to fix this don't know how I will but will. Thanks for listening to me for so many failures. Mike

[confused456]

Mike, they are NOT failures!! Failures would only be if you didn't TRY and want to get clean again!!!!!!

Glad these aren't as bad!

[dominosarah]

you are only human Mike and you will beat this.  We are all here for you.  Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and looking forward.  Keep posting no matter what.  YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!                    sara

[worried878]

one week in u should make it out ok mike...it probably wont be like the first go around...or the second as u have not used long..it is so good to catch it now...u can do it now but in a few weeks it may jhave turned into the whole 9 yards all over again...goodluck

[bobby139]

Mike ..failure would be if you stayed away and never tried agian!
hugs
bobby

[Mikeinthesouth]

Well bobby means I can't be a failure concerning this as I think I am here for the long haul. U guys r to funny and keep me laughing round here. Mike

[sadinmichigan]

you absolutely are not a failure..I am so glad your still alive to be back!!  Did you get any sleep yet? LOL..Love ya my friend.

[joann1975]

I don't think you are a failure at all Mike....I think you are doing awesome and am very impressed with you picking back up and starting over. That is stronger than you think!