Just passed 36 hours

[Shelly3577]

I haven't even looked at the forum in days because sometimes, just reading stuff causes me anxiety and cravings and I may even regret posting this, but.....I took my last hydro at 7:30 Tuesday night.  I'm drinking an Ensure right now and I'm not sure if it's those that are upsetting my tummy or the detox, which I know does.  I'm doing ok.  Just experiencing mild anxiety, cravings, tummy stuff, head fog, chills, and just an all over icky feeling.  I had a killer headache last night, too.  To make matters worse, I'm on my period. HAHAHA  Sorry, guys, but the girls know what I mean. It's definitely not helping things.  

So far, I've been taking Advil and prescribed .25mg Xanax, only when needed.  The Xanax has helped tremendously.  I want to try to sleep as much as I can through this, as I know the worst is yet to come.

Thank you to all who have inboxed me and left me notes.  I won't let you down.  :)

Forgive me if I don't respond quickly.  As I said, staying away from here is best for me sometimes.  I'll check in periodically.  :)

[conhall]

thx Shelly I am always here to help you .
  you my friend are taking your life back and taking control !!!
You will start to feel better and the anxiety is hard I Know But just reach deep down and push through it! Stay busy try and get out and move around. Even a short walk will help you so much
You have so much to look forward to. No more feeling guilty  Big ((((Hugs)))

[Shelly3577]

Thank you. You've been such an inspiration to me!!

[conhall]

you got this girl <3 I am so proud of you waving My broken wing in air for you ! whewt! give that lil one some love it will keep ur mind happy!  xoxox

[Shelly3577]

Well, now the kiddo and her dad are home. She doesn't understand why I'm laid up on the couch. The boyfriend thinks I have a tummy bug but he's not helping occupy my daughter so she's on the couch with me playing. All I want is sleep but I must say that them being here has helped my anxiety a bit. I don't feel so alone. I'm still having chills and sadness. It will be 48 hrs in 2 hrs.

Haha. My bf just told me I smelled like sweat so now I'm soaking.

[conhall]

shelly You are doing great! and actually when your daughter gets home I Know you said you dont know how you will do it dont worry you will be fine. It might actually help to get ur mind off it all. I am sending your sunshine and support  The light at end of tunnel is so close this time tomorrow you will start to feel symptoms ease up . Go for a walk later when it cools off It will get blood moving.  

[4adifferentlife]

Alll that physical blah, goes away... Myself by nature, am just a kinda can't sit still person, I'll sit for 5min and jump it, I'll do that 50 or 60x a day, always did, except for when I was popping so many, I'd fall off to sleep for about 30sec (passing out, really) I am not a napper! So when I d/t, I'd make myself get up and down, our house is  decent size, and I have to walk a ways to get to the bedrooms, I'd make up an excuse to go. Here it has been hotter than young love (said that twice today) I believe when I went thru it, it was 116 and a drought was on, felt like an oven. I'd still ride bicycles with my daughter, sweating like a hog, and telling neighbors i's having "hot flashes," that was not a lie! those things are monsters. All this gets better, and I promise you'll laugh again. Part of this weeks great anxiety, is knowing you'll not have anymore comfort, or "good feelings" from that old friend, hydro, you'll see he was your worst enemy! Count your blessings, your habit was not as bad as some or mine, because he patiently waits, and a few more years, he would have rocked your world.

[vicki595]

The third day is a turning point for a lot of people and you're actually doing better than most !    Take those minerals!  LOL

[Shelly3577]

Omg, Vicki!! You had me so excited! Lol. So by this time tomorrow I should feel a bit better?

[Sonrissa]

Hi Shelly! So glad to hear from you! Congrats! You are well on your way! Sounds like you are doing everything right! The only advice I could offer, is to try and keep a positive attitude! Smile and laugh as much as possible! Play with your son if you can! It will keep your mind busy! Every minute that passes, is one more minute closer to freedom! Just focus on a project, no matter how small! Get up and accomplish it! You will feel better! For me, it was just going outside and watering my plants, or doing 1 load of laundry!  You can do this girl! I am rooting for you! Big hugs!

[vicki595]

Yikes! I wrote 48 hours and should have written 72 hours for the drug to be out of your system!  I'm sorry!!   My mistake...

You're NOT a baby. And what you're feeling is RLS. It presents differently in everyone. Take your minerals, ESP. Magnesium,potassium ,zinc and calcium. Did you get Epsom salts?  A hot soak will help you...

[waterLilly7]

You are doiing great, just keep hanging in there, keep hydrated and drink Ensure.
Time will pass. You will heal. Keep focused on movies, nothing too sad, House reruns kept me alive, I swear. I also liked the Old English chick flicks from the BBC. Hot baths do wonders, take a few a day.

This too shall pass.
you are doing great, keep it up, stay the course, it only gets better,
hugs,
Lily

[Shelly3577]

So, this inability to sit still but don't want to get up and be productive will pass??? That's what's bothering me the most. I went and sat outside but it's 100 degrees out there, so no walking, etc. too hot!! I feel weak and I've eaten and drank ensure so I'm not sure why I'm feeling that way. I can't lie that the mental part is there that if I can just have something to take the edge off but thats impossible. My 4 year old will be home in a little while and I have no clue how I'm going to take care of her while I'm like this. God I'm such a baby.

[4adifferentlife]

All your feeling is normal, and maybe compounded by the female thing... Your fine, you'll be a brand new gal this time next week... If you can get up, and move around do that, the longer I stayed on the couch, the more sorry I felt for myself, I know it seems like "feeling good" is far away, but it's right around the coroner.. We didn't become addicts overnight, and getting back to living is not happen in a night either... Just hang on, we might bend, but we are not gonna break!!

[vicki595]

The junk is out of your system at 48 hours so think about that! It will be gone!
SO, it doesn't get much worse than this...just hang in there and when you get through tomorrow you'll be on your way to feeling better. Truthfully, you won't feel  wonderful but you'll feel okay and tolerate it just fine.

You're doing great Shell!

[Bkitty]

Oh God, I know exactly how you are feeling. There are no words for it really either. I can validate all that you are feeling. I remember the best thing for me was to try and distract myself, somehow. I watched movies, played games on the internet and FB. I mean I literally had to FORCE myself to do anything! It was like torture! I dont know how I got thru it,,I just know that it does pass. Try not to clock watch. Again all this is easier said then done. I also read the NA/AA books online. There is a story in the AA book called "Freedom from Bondage" I re-read and re-read that. I also read some of the bible and at times just would sit there and rock back and forth praying to God for some comfort. Believe it or not it did help.
I hated everything and everypart of the detox and the whole addiction. I still hate it. LOL! You know what you can do to calm down, so I am not going to lecture you-LOL I just wanted you to know that I totally get how you are feeling. But I want to let you know that it does pass. I promise. And it does get better. I promise. In hindsight, it seemed like time stood still but actually it flies by. You will see. Hang in there ((hugs))~Bkitty

[Shelly3577]

I'm feeling so bad right now as I'm at 44 hours. It's nothing that I can't handle but I'm sweating, chills and can't sit still. If it wasn't for the Xanax and my Celexa I'm sure I would've had a panic attack by now. I know I should keep busy but I can't. Just typing this out is killing me.  I hate it.

[4adifferentlife]

Hang in there Shelly, your doing the right thing.. As far as the female issues, well your getting a two for one, so count that as a blessing!

Don't worry bout the forum, it can and sometimes can be a bit depressing, but you've made the right decision, so many more haven't and won't.
Tell me in 30 days, if it was worth it..
And Pray, we southerners know all about that..

[waterLilly7]

You are welcome, and thank you for sharing with us. You have a lot of friends here, so get well, post when ya want to, eat right, and when you can't drink ensure or boost or herbalife or instant breakfast, whatever, take your vitamins, try and push yourself to move around when you can, and .....  I thinkk that is it. Ok, so those are my orders, tee hee, just wanted to get them all in quick here.
:oD

[Shelly3577]

Thank you!

[waterLilly7]

You can do it, and never feel presssured to post, we will be here for you when you are ready.
You will get through this. If I can, you can!
hugs,
Lily

[Shelly3577]

Thanks, Pat.  The anxiety is really high right now.  It's hard to sit still.  Blah

[Shelly3577]

You're a day ahead of me, so maybe you can keep me posted on what to expect.  We can do it!

[Pat1956100]

Hey Shelly
I have been thinking about you.  So glad you are staying strong.
Half way there is great.  I know what you mean about it setting off cravings.  I find that too sometimes.  Hang in there and post if you need us.  You don't have to read other posts.  Just yours
Hugs
Pat

[allaboutcc]

I'm right with you. I took my last at 7 pm Monday night. I'm ok tho. I'm freezing and not feeling great but I think tomorrow will be killer. Maybe we can work together....