Normal for an anxiety problem?

[Robbed718]

hi,

I have an anxiety disorder with Panic.  Over the past several months, every time I get anxious and worry i worry about the worst possible things in the world happeningto me.  lately its been me afraid of me going out and killing other people/ becoming a serial killer.  is this normal?  Everytimei worry about thigns I think of something like that and worry ill become one.  no I never got into fights as a kid, i dont have any of the 14 characterisitics of the serial killer thing, and im not a violent person at all, people would call me shy and sweet.    I just get these thoughts when Im having an anxiety attack and fear ill go nuts and lose it.  Im seeing a doc and atold him, but is it normal to have these thoughts of becoming afraid of something like that happening or anything badf happening during these attacks? Thanks. And like i said i dont have any anger problems or anthing like that.   I think its more of a fear of going crazy and doing something inappropriate.

[nikki1408]

anxious thoughts. thats all. i have to keep telling myself that all the time. my biggest fears are going crazy and hurting myself or others, ending up in a mental hospital, becoming schizophrenic. some other thoughts i have is am i ever going to get better, will i ever be able to eat normally again, and the most annoying one is my brain keeps telling me that i dont love my fiance, even though there is no reason for me not to and i know in my heart that i really do lve him. anyone else ever have ANY of these???

[Robbed718]

Thank you for responding cnote.  I started seeing one several weeks ago, as am atter of fact i'm seeing him today in a little while.  I'll be sure to mention this.

[cnote]

You've got a little bit of a mental problem. Not MENTAL problem lol. I shouldnt put it like that.

You have a irrational thinking problem is what I'm trying to say.

You should laugh about it instead. It will make you feel better. Good therapy. I always joke around with my buddies at work... those always give me a hard time saying stuff like "OH NO! WE'RE GOING TO GIVE CHRIS A PANIC ATTACK!" LOL. I just laugh about it, and I think its funny.

Have you ever seen a therapist before? I bet that would help a lot.

[Robbed718]

Today was Horrible everyone, I watched A Beautiful Mind and for the rest of the day I was scared I was gonna go crazy and become Schizophrenic. It loooked so scary I hope I'm not that.

[Robbed718]

why am i going through this

[Cameron_Milo]

I have dealt with this for years now Robbed718. It doesnt neccisarily happen when im anxious, but I do have regular thoughts about becoming some sort of monster. I am to known as a very nice patient sweet fun loving guy, but I am afraid that some day I don't know maybe ill go nuts and kill my wife or hurt my son or something like that. I have had the fears of becoming a murderer or a rapist or something like that. I mean just completely random, having no link to me or my personality at all.