HELP I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS UNREAL

[cody81]

I have been dealing with anxiety for a while now I am 16 years old and this mainly started when i was in 7th grade (12 or 13) where i am just nervous randomly but over the past year or so it has just been getting worse and worse, i havnt been to the doctor or anything about it because i just really hate going to the doctor its not a fun place. i havnt always been like this which is why i really want to feel normal again and it seems to just be getting worse with time and it really scares me about a year and a half or so ago i got this feeling that was veeerrry strange like i was walking at school and there were alot of people around me and i suddenly felt as if i wasnt really there like everything was unreal or dreamlike it was very scary and i figured lke whoa i must be sick but then it passed as i got back into class. then one night i got it again when i was hangin out with friends after that i started getting it every so often that was back around 7th grade i am in 9th grade now and just about this last summer it came back and now i feel like this all the time its so horrible and scary! i have learned to deal with it alot now but i just want to feel like myself again sometimes i seriously feel like im going crazy or like i will never feel like myself again i feel like and i worry that i have all these different mental disorders, i constantly look up my symptoms online because i just want to find the answer its so hard to enjoy the great life that i have when i constantly feel like i am in a dream i swear everything feels so unreal, like all the time now most every where i go i feel like the only time i feel normal is whne im sitting in my room, or in my house but i still get it when i get up and go somewhere alot and it really ***** i also noticed that i am getting really bad anxiety in social situations such as talking to people looking people in the eye i feel as if my neck is stiffening and i feel like my head shakes. (not visibly usualy i just feel it.) i get alot of muscle spasms as well, i constantly think that i am very sick like mentaly i am soo afraid of getting serious mental disorders

also my memory feels like it is getting worse now i feel like i cant think of what im trying to say anymore i cant ask quesitons in class because i feel really strange and when i talk alot of times i feel like it is not me, like it doesnt sound like me its so scary i just want to feel normal again is there a cure for this problem that i have im really a normal person i just dont feel normal anymore and it affects me in so many ways. i usualy wont be aware of the dreamlike/unreal feeling untill i remember it or think of it then it seems to come right back and i will just feel like i am not there and everything is just not really happening scary!!!

about my memory it seems like its getting harder to remember things such as peoples names even though i know themreally well usualy when i'm trying to tell somebody something about someone or anything like that. i cant focus at all i have the worst attention span eveer and its just gotten worse in this year or two year period.

I mean i  just dont know i feel like im getting dumber i cant stand up infront of the class anymore i cant read in class casue when i do it doesnt sound like me to me everyone tells me that im ok and its just stupid because i talk about it 24/7 i wanna be with reality again and be able to hangout and enjoy my life without feeling like im just not myself THIS *****! helpp pleeeasse


ALSO i feel dizzy all the time my eyes suck too they seem fuzzy and dizzy/strainedi dont know what to do becaues my eyes feel really messed up all the time not that i cant see good i see fine there just seems to be like tiny dots and i just dont really know how to explain but thats one more thing that reeally affects me is i feel dizzy like all the time now its so annoying!

[Adeleh28]

I personally find this scary reading your post and relating to it like you are describing how I feel. I went through a traumatic even at the age of 13 and haven't been the same since, I'm also 16 now. I diagnosed myself with bipolar and sometimes it eats better sometimes worse, my friends are my personal doctor and my parents are oblivious to what's really going on with me. I've been suicidal and self harmed yet I'm still pulling through even tho I don't feel worth it. lately I've had the weirdest feeling, like I'm always high and taht everything I'm doing isn't real, for example if I have an itch on my hand I would watch myself itch it but wouldn't be able to feel myself doing so, it's crazy!! I have had many panic and anxiety attacks but nothing like this, I'm just glad I'm not the only one...

[Mespin12]

Seriously, I'm going through the same thing right now. Everything you said, I feel. Like it's not even funny. I've been so scared and I fear the same things you do. Even though this was from 6 years ago, I have the same feelings and the same everything. Did you ever find a way to cure it or find out what it was? Knowing what it is would make me feel better.

[TrinLostLife]

Has anyone figured it out? i recently started going through the same things 3 times in the past month, im 13 and only a few of my close friends know about this and are worried, I am to of course.

[Mur1219]

Ya same it seems to start at like 7th grade or so because mine started last year and I just want it gone forever! I'm been told it's a "gift" but that's about as far as you can get about how I feel about this thing.

[kc4569]

Hi everyone, I am 19 years old and I have been dealing with these feelings of anxiety and depression for a while too. I have become so aware of it that it is all I can think about now, I feel such an out of body experience like I will look into the mirror and not recognize myself. I feel so far gone that I have almost forgotten who I am or I do not believe myself when I try to say inspirational things to tell myself I am going to be okay. I suppose it is good to say them anyway. Someone mentioned being involved in witchcraft which I also dabbled in a bit and although I still think it was harmless perhaps it did do something so I am going to continue to pray. I also smoked a lot of weed this semester of college which I know probably triggered a certain something in me once I opened my mind that much. I have convinced myself I am so alone in this world even with an entire family who loves me, friends, an amazing boyfriend whom I also can't feel happy toward anymore although I know I love him and he just wants me to be happy again. I feel like the entire world is inside of my mind and somehow no one can convince me otherwise, I am going to therapy today (for the first time because I finally told my parents) and even typing this has been difficult because of the immense weight I feel I have on my chest. Even as I say these words about myself I do not feel connected to them. I also cannot sleep and I feel that when I do I am still exhausted. It feels like there is a little voice which I know is mine that is just trying to break free from these bars I just cannot get myself to relax and I don't know how to let go and just live. Does anyone have any advice for changing the mindset of yourself? Training your brain into not thinking so depressingly about every aspect of life? Or at least on how to deal with it.

[elijahangel1]

everything you said is what im going through literally . everything getting dizzy . life feels like a dream , everything you said I can relate to . im so happy I found someone that knows what im going through . I feel like mine is getting worse with time . I feel really stupid now . like I cant act normal in front of people , like they think im on drugs or something . ive went to nuerologist , doctors and physiologist . and my physiologist said it might be adhd but I don't think that's it . but do you ever feel uncomfortable making eye contact with people ? do you ever get like bad headaches ? do you ever get afraid to like look someway cause the way you move your head? like i also feel things like that.
please reply , i just wanna figure out whats wrong with me. im 16 to btw

[cinderlla91715]

Have you figured anything out. I'm going thru the same thing

[Lillanna11]

But sometimes I can't control it

[Lillanna11]

Same exact thing that i experience. I've been trying to figure out why it happens but nobody has been able to give me an answer . It feels like I'm tripping out. And I have really bad anxiety and depression too. I'm 15 and a half but it started when I was in school one day the first week of my freshmen year and after that it happened a lot . Sometimes it freaked me out but I'm used to it now. It's weird though because I can control it. The ppl r so thin they look like aliens and I can't even make out faces and their bodies lag when they walk. It usually happens at school but it happens anywhere really.

[cvc0420]

I am experiencing this too! It is so awful and at times I feel completely hopeless. I have been on medication for just about 3 weeks to control my OCD/anxiety and panic disorder, and it has helped to an extent, but I am still experiencing this dream like feeling. I am only on 10 mg of paxil (I was on for 18 months and then went off for the summer--went back on as soon as I got back to college). I'm scared this feeling will never go away.