HELP I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS UNREAL

[cody81]

I have been dealing with anxiety for a while now I am 16 years old and this mainly started when i was in 7th grade (12 or 13) where i am just nervous randomly but over the past year or so it has just been getting worse and worse, i havnt been to the doctor or anything about it because i just really hate going to the doctor its not a fun place. i havnt always been like this which is why i really want to feel normal again and it seems to just be getting worse with time and it really scares me about a year and a half or so ago i got this feeling that was veeerrry strange like i was walking at school and there were alot of people around me and i suddenly felt as if i wasnt really there like everything was unreal or dreamlike it was very scary and i figured lke whoa i must be sick but then it passed as i got back into class. then one night i got it again when i was hangin out with friends after that i started getting it every so often that was back around 7th grade i am in 9th grade now and just about this last summer it came back and now i feel like this all the time its so horrible and scary! i have learned to deal with it alot now but i just want to feel like myself again sometimes i seriously feel like im going crazy or like i will never feel like myself again i feel like and i worry that i have all these different mental disorders, i constantly look up my symptoms online because i just want to find the answer its so hard to enjoy the great life that i have when i constantly feel like i am in a dream i swear everything feels so unreal, like all the time now most every where i go i feel like the only time i feel normal is whne im sitting in my room, or in my house but i still get it when i get up and go somewhere alot and it really ***** i also noticed that i am getting really bad anxiety in social situations such as talking to people looking people in the eye i feel as if my neck is stiffening and i feel like my head shakes. (not visibly usualy i just feel it.) i get alot of muscle spasms as well, i constantly think that i am very sick like mentaly i am soo afraid of getting serious mental disorders

also my memory feels like it is getting worse now i feel like i cant think of what im trying to say anymore i cant ask quesitons in class because i feel really strange and when i talk alot of times i feel like it is not me, like it doesnt sound like me its so scary i just want to feel normal again is there a cure for this problem that i have im really a normal person i just dont feel normal anymore and it affects me in so many ways. i usualy wont be aware of the dreamlike/unreal feeling untill i remember it or think of it then it seems to come right back and i will just feel like i am not there and everything is just not really happening scary!!!

about my memory it seems like its getting harder to remember things such as peoples names even though i know themreally well usualy when i'm trying to tell somebody something about someone or anything like that. i cant focus at all i have the worst attention span eveer and its just gotten worse in this year or two year period.

I mean i  just dont know i feel like im getting dumber i cant stand up infront of the class anymore i cant read in class casue when i do it doesnt sound like me to me everyone tells me that im ok and its just stupid because i talk about it 24/7 i wanna be with reality again and be able to hangout and enjoy my life without feeling like im just not myself THIS *****! helpp pleeeasse


ALSO i feel dizzy all the time my eyes suck too they seem fuzzy and dizzy/strainedi dont know what to do becaues my eyes feel really messed up all the time not that i cant see good i see fine there just seems to be like tiny dots and i just dont really know how to explain but thats one more thing that reeally affects me is i feel dizzy like all the time now its so annoying!

[eelaron]

Thanks for your post. I'm having problems again with my anxiety and that horrible feeling of being in a dream like state. It really *****. Reading your post help to calm me.

[Tommygun1991]

finally an answer to all my questions!
someone who relates down to the point! KEEP STRONG BOY

[Jao0828]

Try kundalini. Try to search how to open your energy centers of your body. (Sorry for my bad english) im also suffering from those syptoms.

[jjones8856]

Yes dlin I can relate to your exact feelings as you put them in to very good words.  I went through a period of around 6 months where I continually felt as you explained.  I also had it randomly in the future.  I somewhat attribute it to marijuana LSD and mushroom use   I have managed to control it by making Positive life adjustments, such as not engaging in drug use. combined with other things.   But I think it is more than just that.  It is a transformation that the mind and spirit are trying to acquire I believe it is your inner spirit and self looking for you to make a change in your life.  The subtle change, that you and only you can discover, will transform yourself and once again normalcy will return to everyday life. Random acts of kindness never hurts either:)

[Anneiamokay]

Do not give up bran863. I know thats hard to say but you are not alone. i have spent many times crying my eyes out in frustration. here is what i wrote to cody and it may help you

My name is Anne and i am 21, I am not a doctor but I am almost certain i'm can help. I know this was many many years ago and you have already probably had the issue straightened out. Your story is exactly like my, My anxiety started at the exact same age. The phenomenon your talking about it called derealization. I know it may sound scary but i promise its perfectly normal with people who are going through anxiety. Also you are in complete control of it. I know the worst part about all this is you feel like your going crazy, or reality is slipping from you. I know your probably sitting here saying id rather have a ulcer or my arm broken! I was there too. completely there.  Everything will be okay, take comfort in knowing that in this one specific case you are not special. There are forum and forums of people going through the same thing. Entire communities. Every anxiety is different because every conscious and unconscious fear is different. I know the doctor sounds horrifying. I know the least thing you want to do is go on the medicine. because i know your afraid to take it and what itll feel like and if youll loose control and what will happen.  I know your afraid that the doctor will listen to you and say wow your nuts and lock you up. They wont. I have seen many doctors. i basically have my own psychiatrist and psychologist. the Psychologist is great! You sit on a leather couch and talk about whatever you want. You just need to find the right one that personally suits you. you could take baby steps see a psychologist and maybe just that is all you need and maybe it isnt then you seen a psychiatrist.If so thats fine too. I see one. i recieved the medication, hell iv been on  like a 4 different types. My favorite was zoloft. wow that makes me sound like a addict haha im not!  But for me when  i took it nothing happenend. boring right? i thought id get high or become a different person and lose myself but i didnt. I was able to do amazing amazing things! like fly to NYC by my self and live far away from my parents to go to college. my favorite are scary movies! ironic isnt it. Im normal. No im not normal. Because im better than i was before anxiety.  Iv been given tools to help and talk people through things, kindness, compassion and most importantly the true meaning of bravery. Remember, being brave doesnt mean your not scared, it means your scared as hell but do it any way. Only a idiot would jump into a burning building to safe people without fear.  But im going off topic. Getting super emotional because ive been there. Any way if your set on not seeing a doctor and maybe you dont need one at all. You can always look at the book Panic To Power by Lucinda basset. shes my biggest hero. i know reading sounds boring and that it just sounds like rubbish  of inspirational words but its not thats the amazing thing its a book about everything youve said everything everyone with anxiety has gone through.

Go take back your life, live happy and be at peace and god bless,
Anne

[Anneiamokay]

My name is Anne and i am 21, I am not a doctor but I am almost certain i'm can help. I know this was many many years ago and you have already probably had the issue straightened out. Your story is exactly like my, My anxiety started at the exact same age. The phenomenon your talking about it called derealization. I know it may sound scary but i promise its perfectly normal with people who are going through anxiety. Also you are in complete control of it. I know the worst part about all this is you feel like your going crazy, or reality is slipping from you. I know your probably sitting here saying id rather have a ulcer or my arm broken! I was there too. completely there.  Everything will be okay, take comfort in knowing that in this one specific case you are not special. There are forum and forums of people going through the same thing. Entire communities. Every anxiety is different because every conscious and unconscious fear is different. I know the doctor sounds horrifying. I know the least thing you want to do is go on the medicine. because i know your afraid to take it and what itll feel like and if youll loose control and what will happen.  I know your afraid that the doctor will listen to you and say wow your nuts and lock you up. They wont. I have seen many doctors. i basically have my own psychiatrist and psychologist. the Psychologist is great! You sit on a leather couch and talk about whatever you want. You just need to find the right one that personally suits you. you could take baby steps see a psychologist and maybe just that is all you need and maybe it isnt then you seen a psychiatrist.If so thats fine too. I see one. i recieved the medication, hell iv been on  like a 4 different types. My favorite was zoloft. wow that makes me sound like a addict haha im not!  But for me when  i took it nothing happenend. boring right? i thought id get high or become a different person and lose myself but i didnt. I was able to do amazing amazing things! like fly to NYC by my self and live far away from my parents to go to college. my favorite are scary movies! ironic isnt it. Im normal. No im not normal. Because im better than i was before anxiety.  Iv been given tools to help and talk people through things, kindness, compassion and most importantly the true meaning of bravery. Remember, being brave doesnt mean your not scared, it means your scared as hell but do it any way. Only a idiot would jump into a burning building to safe people without fear.  But im going off topic. Getting super emotional because ive been there. Any way if your set on not seeing a doctor and maybe you dont need one at all. You can always look at the book Panic To Power by Lucinda basset. shes my biggest hero. i know reading sounds boring and that it just sounds like rubbish  of inspirational words but its not thats the amazing thing its a book about everything youve said everything everyone with anxiety has gone through.

Go take back your life, live happy and be at peace and god bless,
Anne