Am I experiencing anxiety?

[sadpenguin]

Well, this is my first post on here and I am posting from my phone so please excuse all typos and grammatical errors. I don't know what's wrong with me.... I'm not 'normal' like everyone else. I have to "try" when I converse with those who aren't my immediate family or my ONE best friend I just seem awkward. And when I'm super tired forget it I'm just a social freak. And its weird because either I feel "awake" or like I'm in a haze just moving through. Like I'm looking at life through a glass. And I'm just so tired.... But when you have a toddler and are enrolled in nursing school and feel sleep deprived its kind of difficult not to feel tired. Yet I do sleep.... I sleep like 7 hours a night and still feel awful. I've had blood work and everything seems fine. Maybe I have social anxiety because people make me feel- I don't want to say nervous- but more like exhausted or unsure of what to say. Maybe I have cyclothymic (or however you spell it) depression because some days I feel human then others I feel like someone else. Ive always felt hideous cuz where I live the chicks look like money and dress like a kardashian and I just look fat and ugly but I've kind of gotten over that. Just gotta make the best of a crappyish life. I sometimes feel depressed but not like emotionally- its more like fatigue. I don't want to feel tired and awkward! But I feel weird bringing it up to my pcp. I just stopped taking phentermine (which is magical btw I'm actually looking female with all the weight I shed) and I don't want to look like I'm just looking for meds. Btw... Totally off topic but before I used to take adderall (not prescribed to me) when I was a teenager and I felt so human on it. I wish I could feel more like that. I felt so clear headed and was able to just FOCUS. I'm also a hardcore nail biter and cuticle chewer... I feel as though I never progressed past Frued's oral stage... Also I can never sit still for longer than 30 minutes. In class to keep from tapping my feet or shaking my leg I have to doodle which also keeps me from attacking my nails. What could be wrong with me? I just wanna feel human!

[RubyWitch]

I read your post about 5 times and still had no idea where to begin. You are packing around one hell of a lot of stress. You didn't say if you are a single mom or not, but if you are, the stress and exhaustion of that is more than most women can handle, but also attending nursing school, which is grueling, is asking for trouble..........if YOU don't ask for some help.
You absolutely must get over your inhibition of talking to your doctor about things. They can't help you get well if they don't know you're unwell.
I would urge you to see your PCP for a very thorough work up, head to toe. There are a lot of things that need to be ruled out. I would also suggest you obtain an evaluation from a psychiatrist. Again, it's just my opinion, but I think you've got some anxiety, anger and self-esteem issues that once dealt with would make you a much happier, healthier person, mother and eventually, RN. I think that's what COULD be "wrong" with you. And I believe that therapy would make you feel normal/human again.
You have a really great life ahead of you if you finish nursing school, but if you let these problems wear you down, your chances of dropping out increase and that would be a real waste.
Peace
Greenlydia