Not feeling myself lately and I don't know what to do.

[unbreakable19]

I'm 19 years old and I have depression and anxiety. About a month ago I started to feel weird and it kept getting worse to where I now don't feel myself anymore and I feel like I am in a dream. This is the worst feeling ever. I can't feel any emotions except for anger and sometimes I cry but that is hardly ever. Before this happened I cried all the time so it's weird for me not to be able to cry. I feel so numb and like I'm not really here or alive. At first I has no idea what was wrong or what had happened to me so my anxiety was unbearable and I am just now starting to calm down some but not much. I can't control my feelings or thoughts. Everything seems so negative and weird to me. I really hate this. I don't know how much longer I can take feeling this way. I don't know what to do. I hope this is just my depression or anxiety making me feel this way and not me going crazy or something. I am constantly worrying about this and will I ever feel normal again and be able to live my life how I want. I can't relax or sleep anymore and when I do I have nightmares and they make me feel so much worse. I have headaches often and I am very irritated all the time. Anything and everything irritates me. I really just want to feel normal again. I hate to think that I am experiencing depersonalization but I'm pretty sure I am. I'm not really getting all the support I need at home. My family doesn't understand and it makes me feel worse that I can't really talk to them. Does anyone know what I should do or can relate to me?

[BabyCreighton2016]

The best tging to do is just realize that its your anxiety doing this! I feel like this all the time you have to find things that you like to do & that make you laugh!Trust me Im feeling this right now it'll be okay just smile and thank god for being aliv.. try praying that ALWAYS helps!!

[Rob1231]

You should read Natural Cures "They" Don't Want You to Know About by Kevin Trudeau.  BMX Man - since yours happened outside I suspect chemtrail exposure to heavy metals and nanotized aluminum particles.

[Rob1231]

You should read Natural Cures "They" Don't Want You to Know About by Kevin Trudeau.  BMX Man - since yours happened outside I suspect chemtrail exposure to heavy metals and nanotized aluminum particles.

[Chucklenutz]

Mine started the second time I smoked weed. Started with tunnel vision, I spaced out a lot and couldn't feel pain. the next time i smoked, the same thing happened, and made it worse, and it just never stopped.

[nursegirl6572]

Hello there, and thanks for your contribution.  I just wanted to point out that you've posted on a very old thread.  There are a lot of more current threads on the forum where you could offer your support.  Thanks!

Welcome!

[Sarah1982A]

hi there, i'm sarah 31 from Iran
let me --as some one who felt the same way for many years since childhood-- tell u one thing:
DO NOT FEAR whether you might get reconnected to yourself again or not! because YOU WILL, but it takes relatively long time up to six months or one year, maybe less, or even more to help that. it happens all of a sudden or eventually when you don't expect it or you don't GET it.
it's some sense we all share, dear. you may find some scientific evidence of "why does it happen" in phenomenological consciousness papers or those who discuss phenomenology and philosophy of mind. SELF and Self-agency, Self-awareness, ... and "perspectiveness".
these were but a few keywords which you don't really need to follow or surf for on the web, but I want to ASSURE you n anybody else who is suffering from the same vague and bizarre feeling that it's part of you as a human being BUT "you Will defeat it"
but don't feel bad if it bothers u again some years later, it will be alright soon ... just look back at it n smile, it's part of you, a rare feeling that not all people may experience.

[jul04]

My sister her degree in psycology and she use to run therapy groups for people with anxiety and depression.  One of the exercises they use to do is she would tell her group to try and picture what life would be like if they didn't suffer from anxiety or depression.  Then she would tell them to try to live that life and pretend that they didn't have the anxiety or depression.  Eventually what is suppose to happen is that life you imagined living becomes your reality.

Now I am not going to tell you that this is an easy thing to do because it isn't.  But if it helps to get you through the day then it can't hurt to try it.  She said that this is in no way a quick fix but if you are going to therapy and dealing with the issues that are causing you to be depressed and anxious this exercise may help you.

I just thought I would throw it out there hopefully someone can benefit from it.  I hope everyone starts feeling better soon.  Hugs......

[unbreakable19]

Thank you everyone! I hope to see a therapist soon so I can be on my way to recovering from this.

[unbreakable19]

Thankyou :) I'm just trying to keep my mind busy but I am constantly thinking about how I can't feel any of my emotions and how weird it is to feel like I'm in a dream constantly but I'm at least trying. But what you said does give me some hope. I'm going to make an appointment soon with my doctor and tell her how I feel. I saw her a week ago but that was for depression and axiety, I just realized lately that I had depersonalization too but didn't tell her that and that is what bothers me the most. Thanks for the adivce.

[Dwet]

Im gonna agree, i used to get the same way, bad anxiety, days and weeks of dream like state with no emotion, its almost like your brain has shut part of itself down.  I would try to see a doctor and explain to them exactly how you feel.  They can give you some meds and point you in the direction of someone who specializes in anxiety.  Try to eat right, sleep right, and keep your mind busy on other things than how your feeling.  I know how you feel and have been there on several occassions.  Just keep telling yourself your going to be fine and you will pull through.  Good luck

[bjj_guy]

I think jul04 pretty much summed it up.  Seeing a therapist was the best decision I ever made when my anxiety became too much.  My therapist taught me skills that not only helped with my anxiety and depression problems, but have translated into skills I can use in other areas of my life.

I guess the reason I am posting this is to let you know that you are not alone.  I felt the exact same way, I know the feeling of depersonalization and the hopelessness of anxiety and depression.  I can remember when I was sitting in my room wondering if I was ever going to be rid of these problems and be able to lead a normal life.  But with some time and hard work, and the guidance of my therapist I found out that it is not hopeless, and that my condition was treatable.

I know that parents and friends, although they mean well, often don't understand what we go through.  As someone who has gone through what you are going through, if you want any more advice please feel free to message me.  

Please see a therapist!

Best of luck!

[bmxman4life]

i know how you feel im 15 and i feel the exact same thing. how did ures start? because mine started when i was out cutting wood with my dad, brother, and gf at the time. and i was working really hard at it and then it just like hit me. and ever since then i dont wanna drive because i cant concentrate on what im doing. if you have any ideas on what could help me please dont hesitate to tell me. because i feel like i cant control it any more and handle it anymore. i just cant go anymore feeling like this.

[jul04]

I am so sorry you are going through such a hard time right now.  I am sure that alot of us on this forum can relate to you.

Are you currently seeing anyone to help you with your anxiety/depression?  I think you should start with seeing  a psychiatrist.  They will work with you to teach you coping skills and together you can figure out the best course of treatment for you.  That may or may not include taking medicaiton.  Hopefully you will be able to get to the root of what is causing your anxiety/depression and then you can begin to deal with it.

Living with anxiety/depression is horrible but you can overcome it.  Try keeping a journal because sometimes just getting those feelings out helps.  Try to make sure that you are eating right and exercising.  You should start seeing a difference and then maybe you can start gettting some sleep.  Lack of sleep in not good for you and it is only making things worse.  Once you start getting some rest you will start feeling better.

Keep posting here because everyone on this forum has been there one way or another.  I really hope you start feeling better soon.....My new motto is Positve Thinking leads to Positive Living.  It does work when you can make the positive the focus instead of the negative.  It is hard but it can be done.  Feel better...