I am driving myself crazy!

[mindbodysoul]

My son died a few years ago of cancer.  I have been a basket case ever since. I am so afraid that any little thing is cancer.  I work myself into a lather constantly-eg-I feel sick-oh my gosh is that a lump in my stomach-oh wait it must be a muscle, but what if it isn't remember you are nauseous-maybe it is cancer-oh yes you had that CT last year and you didn't have cancer, well maybe you are ok.  That is an example of my self talk.  I was on cymbalta and it all calmed down but I went off to see if I could handle life without it. I have been off for 2 years. I am starting back on Friday.  Am I the only one dealing with this nonsense? I deal with a lot of fatigue.  Sometimes I just feel so tired. Any advice?

[Paxiled]

I don't think you need a drug, you need a lot of therapy to deal with the loss of your son.  It sounds like you never got over it emotionally, and have projected his path onto yourself.  This is something therapy can actually help (this is a joke for my fellow anxiety sufferers), but medication will just cover up the symptoms.  This is something you need to face.  At least that's how I see it from the little you posted.  

[isabelcat]

I'm so sorry for you're loss. its natural to have fears, but you need to keep your self healthy so you don't get sick, try to do thinks that prevent cancer. i had thyroid cancer almost 2 years ago, im having a recheck,and felling anxious about it. but the best way to fight ist is to b positive. so when you fell this way remind you're self that this is just anxiety. question the felling like. " well if i have cancer wouldn't i feel this" challenge the thought.
good luck!