I have been dealing with an extreme fear of death, and anxiety about everything. It started a little over a year ago. I was 22 when I found my mother dead. She had a heart attack, so it was very sudden. I was extremely close with her. From the age of 12 when my dad had left, it was just us. we did everything together and she was really all I had. Up until I got pregnant. Once my daughter was born, I had her, and her father. But it was only 1 month after I had moved out when she passed. It was a very traumatic experience. She had called and asked me to come stay with her because she was having really bad back pain and needed my help around the house, so I loaded up the car and we headed that way. When I got there I opened the door and found her unresponsive on the couch right in front of me. For about 5 months I had constant recurring thought about finding her. I would replay that day in my head and feel all the emotions of it. I finally went to a therapist for a little while and I was able to stop thinking about it so much. But now, I have a CONSTANT fear of death. Mostly about my daughter and her father, my fiancé. I feel like since I lost my mom, they are all I have. (My father had passed 2 years prior to my mom). Also, I was adopted so they were the only family I had before my pregnancy. I just feel like I need to talk to someone. My fear has become so overwhelming that I can't live a happy life. I can't drive because I fear that I will wreck and if I wreck and something happens to my child or fiancé, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I fear for my fiancé every day while he is at work, because his job requires a lot of driving. If I don't hear from him for a couple of hours my mind automatically thinks something terrible has happened. I am always tired because sleep has become nearly impossible. When I turn out the lights and try to go to sleep I start thinking about the fact that one day, we will all be dead. And it overwhelms me. I start to think about what I would do if something happened to my daughter or fiancé. And then I start to feel the emotions, as if it has already happened. I fear every night that someone will break into our home and hurt us, or our house will catch on fire, and sometimes I even fear things that aren't likely at all to happen. Like our home being sucked into a sink hole. I feel so crippled by this. I want to be able to enjoy my life, but I can't when I am constantly scared of everything. My poor child who is almost 2 can't even eat a normal meal because I break her food into microscopic pieces, for fear of her choking. (Even though I am certified in cpr and first aid, and know what to do if she were to get choked.) I just wanted to see if there is anyone who feels the same way, or can help me over come this. I don't want to take meds because my birth father and mother were both drug addicts, and I don't want to fall into their shoes. I've heard anxiety meds are very addictive. Thanks in advance for any help!