will this ever end????

[Kel5]

I feel so overwelmed with dealing with my anxiety issues.  I have so many other things going on in my life and it feel like as soon as I get over one hurdle another one, large pops up. I am starting my graduate teacher certificate program next week. It is an intense program and I am scared that I wont be able to handle it. I have been taking graduate classes the past few semesters and have done well academically but it has been a struggle. Writing papers while having anxiety attacks was not easy last week. I will be doing student teaching and am afraid of having an anxiety attack during it. I met with the teacher and was have extreme anxiety during that time. When my anxiety is really high I have difficulty focusing and my thoughts get all tangled and I get tongue tied. I am afraid I will make a fool out of myself.
I am so sick of all of this. Will I ever be the same as I was before? Does anyone ever get their life back to normal?

[anxietyfighter]

I'm just starting to realise that I'll never be 'normal'. Anxiety is going to be part of my life forever and we just have to find a way to deal with it. My nan, aunty and a few other relatives (all maternal and all women interestingly) have anxiety and depression and they all have different ways of dealing with it. My aunt will take one antidepressant a day for the rest of her life, my nan pushes through with quiet grit and determination, and I just have to figure out a way I can deal with it. This doesn't mean we cant live a great life, it just means its going to be a bit harder for us.

If you're undergoing treatment talk to your doctor / health professional and tell them how your feeling. If your not having treatment I would definitely consider getting some. You don't have to go through this alone and unsupported.

Also its a new chapter in your life, for me a new challenge is always scary, but try to focus on the fact that you got through your studies, you know what your doing and everyone makes mistakes, so when it happens, if you stuff up, just try and laugh it off. Don't dwell on it. I bet all student teachers are nervous for the first few classes, but once you've done it a few times it will get easier and you'll be less anxious. Try some relaxation techniques before your first class, I use Rescue Remedy (can usually buy from chemist) when I have to go into new situations as it helps calm me down enough to get through. Focus on the fact that this is what you want to do and your going to be great at it. Good luck and let us know how you go.

[happyish]

i'm a 32yold mess, iv'e been on various pills since i was 16 and then i had my 1st child when i was 22.whilst most women complain about having awful pregnancies, i was quite the opposite.....i lost approx 15kg throughout it and came out skinner than i'd been in a long time! put the weightloss down to no alcohol during pregnancy, because i ate any thing and everything lol. then 8weeks after her birth, back on the pill. look back now was definately depressed after having her, no one helped tho just told me i would be fine. got progressively worse, crying all the time, couldn't leave the house, couldn't talk on phone, avoided people, couldn't cope but couldn't not cos had baby, all the classic signs of depression, anxiety and agraphobia.oh and ill add the new pill was a higher dose as after having daughter had bleeding through old one. then in 2004ish i started getting panic attacks, and im not talking the regular variety....palpatations, sweating, dizziness, fainting, diahorea, nausea, tremours, slurred speach, you name it i had it, thought i was having a heart attack or strfoke. called ambo a few times. finally got diagnosis of acute panic disorder. tried every natural remedy...far too severe for that. went on anti depressants. felt fantastic at first, realised i hadnt felt that good since a kid, realised i must have had depression most of life because i felt so great. ups and downs when they wouldnt work as effectively so i'd change to a different one but mostly under control. Then i fell pregnant with my son in 2006. although lovan was safe to take through pregnancy, i decided against it and no pill obviously! felt fantastic....lost 26kg! i gave birth and weight the same as my wedding day weight! i was the happiest new mother you have ever met!!! then i went back on the pill about 8wks after his birth, a couple of weeks later i was a wreck...all the panic attacks came back worse than before!! i was a mess, so back off to doc and back on the antideppressants. its been nearly 3 years now and although after changing anti depressants a number of times, panic attacks mostly controlled, depression in full force, want to sleep my life away, cant cry because im numb, FAT again (that came back about 3 months after birth) and have no desire to be alive.not that i want to kill myself, just seems that i would be happy to never wake up, i'm wishing my life away! the only relief is sleep.
so for years i have been say to people that my hormones must be at their optimum when i'm pregnant as i always feel fantastic and lose so much weight. everyone thinks i'm just looking for an excuse, that i'm just lazy and fat because of it. after reading this.....i think not! i'm going off the pill as of today to see. i'll stay on the antidepressants til i feel in control enough to come off those too, but heres hoping.
if anyone else has experienced this in pregnancy, please tell me. i will keep you all up to date. anything is worth a try at this stage!!

[AO111]

Are you undergoing treatment for this? You should feel proud though that you are managing a busy life while having anxiety. I doubt it's an easy task.